Cus I got my speakers going hammer

Speechless. I'm without speech

Walk around the club, fuck everybody!

Found while stoned

Jesus Baby. Screw Mix.

Galaxy Urges Screwed & Chopped

superFUCKINGawesome mixtape trailer announcement really

Sun Wraps To Save A Life Download

Download HERE

Rouge

"If ya looking for faster love, if that's love in your eyes"

Life as Fish P2

Galaxy Urges - Me And DC

Hey, Enjoy Vanny

Quote of life

“If the world were merely seductive, that would be easy. If it were merely challenging, that would be no problem. But I arise in the morning torn between a desire to improve the world and a desire to enjoy the world. This makes it hard to plan the day.”

- E.B. White

Paramore - Careful

Happy Festivus Everybody

11:33 PM

Hanging out

Just swim

Just me and my brother

Got damn amazing

Nice

Let's do ecstasy

Punch Drunk

Leave me here in my sick sad little world.

"The world is a drought when out of love" - Incubus

3:54AM

I think i'm dumb.

I hope love buries my face in mud.

I'm ugly. I'm dumb. I'm careless. I can't be saved. I'm anxious for death. I'm scared of life. I'm scared of love, but yet I need it. So I keep it. Somewhere safe, nowhere near my brain. Alotta strains... Alotta waves.... Alotta changing pace. Paces. Spaces. I'm tired of it. The misplaced action. I blame myself. For not living up, but never giving up.

Valentinesknown.

My birthdays coming up... What should I get for myself.... Suicide? Suicide on my 21st birthday sounds just fine.

Love...

What am i when i'm weak? Suicidal and Happy.

12:58 AM

Part 2.

Me (again).

Fucking Nirvana!

"I encourage people to not work, slack off, smoke weed, you'll only be alive 70 years if your lucky anyway" This shit is like a conversaion you woulda had with me hahahahahah

Shit is Amazing!

From H-Tine! Got Damn! I wanna Collab! straight the fuck up

Agoraphobic

I am, have been, been being, but don't want to anymore.

I just want to make music and put it out. Sun Wraps and other projects are coming. Love, Vanny.

Shoutout Walter

Just listen

Incubus

Incubus Xmas Present to Our Fans from Steve Rennie on Vimeo.

This life is 99% dealing with shit that sucks - Johnny Polygon

Why is love competition?

Incubus - Make Yourself

Waken

Love Hurts.

It must be the highlight of people's lives to go to their favorite artist's concerts and just escape. And jam out, space out. I think I remember the meaning of this shit. I'm spose to suffer my way to glory to tell y'all about this shit on the way. Also, dealing with bullshit everybody goes through just in a different kind of way. Shits crazy. i'm gonna work so hard to gain everybodies attention. And i'm really from the H, just being myself. I know I prolly should be rapping cars, money, and fashion? but.. thats just not me. I don't like those things.. don't care for em really.. but a girl... you can care about... somebody you can love.. something you love.. a girl and music... music and a girl... and a babygirl... life is crazy, it doesn't stop, it just goes.

Nice to know you - incubus

I wish you were here - incubus

2:06 aM

Spaceships land in through heart surgery by Vansolo

Something about us

Fucking Zombieland Dude!

Saturday, lonely thoughts, high mind, 1:45 AM. (Mind)Swim1.

This is making me realize i need to fall in love again?!.... or STAY in Love with the person and best friend, lover, pussy/ass/tittie/smile/kiss/taste/leg/back/thigh/toungue/attraction/mood/attitude/laughing/joking/crying/emergency contact obsessed with person i'm in & out of love/likes with now. Reality tells me i'm not gonna fall in love again and really don't want too because alotta girls are boring and imitating... it's sad... but it's cool... it's life.. ya'know.. but i know one thing.. i'll still forever be singing to my woman even if she's moved on and loved another man, I wouldnt care. Everybody knows i rap the good, the bad about my life and love life.. and romanticly it's been insane! Sex in parkspots, backseats, bedrooms, shopping store dressing rooms, parents rooms and just everything we've dealt with, with each other. It's clear now, ya'know.. we've had fun.. too much fun.. alotta more fun.. and jealous fun... now i'm high and i can't believe i'm typing all this but fuck it i'm just going with it partially because i like my macs keyboard and other halfly cus i'm high... and i want pizza. and i have digornio. Take that hanna! haha just kidding, i'm soooo WACKKKKK hahahah i don't care.. i'm chilling! i'm young! i'm not giving a fuck! fucking blowed man. peace out.. and... hanna.. No, Hanna. I love you. And L'eau. And if you really do stalk/look at my blog and see thing (muah) tell L'eau I miss her, and i'm high, and she's in my happy thoughts. Baby. Muah'z! Peack! Eskimo kiss and everything. I love y'all.. and i've been typing this in text for the past few days, but i kept erasing and not sending, but this is my blog so fuck it. i can put whatever the hell i want so i'm putting this.

Gimme, gimme.. Something to BELIEVE in

Jesus (Dom Vanny-Lized remix) by Vansolo

It's just a PHASE........ Waiting for it to be over too..... yahhhhhhhhhhhhh

Lord Lord Lord

I don't want any impression other than real life.... and I mean that. Vanny.

Whatever

Kind of World.

I'm on the other side
Living is my life
I cannot get it right
Only when I write
Only then I'm like
It's worth it for this life (but)
The second that I stop
Is the second that I drop
And go back to my misery
Go back to the chemistry
Of me and sadness
I'm tired of all this madness
No one knows what happened
Me I'm justa dragon
& even what's worse
The devils like Aladdin
Mission impossible
To my tom cruise passing
Gers, they doubt me
Fuking jerks
And tho I act like it's cool
Really doa it hurts
Really doa it perks
My ego and soul
So that be the reason
Why I let em all go
Off, on they road
Where I never go
Asylum every role
Of me being bold
And since I need life
I'll just say I said so, peace
-
I find myself
In old movies
And porn downloads
Where I'm found whole
Where I found loads
Of peace, serenity
Even much entity
Even then sleep with me
And wake me up to be with me
Hello to the ghost
That surround my home
Thank you to the curse
That just found my soul
Gifted is a curse
But being normal is worse
And I don't mean talent
That yo friends give birth
Nobody knows me
Nobody owes me
A got damn thang
So remember that Mayne
I be on the a-train
Falling sleep to real games
Of life
Of rights
Of wrongs
Of heights
To hike
& climb
To not feel behind
Like everybodies better
Than me at this life
This is how it feels right
This is what it feels like
Being me
Doing everything they don't to succeed
I wish I could stop
I wish I would not
Even ever rapped
Now I'm trapped in this spot
I'm trapped in this lot
Of being surrounded
Dos I'm alone
That's two of me holmes
Two of me songs
Can you make you feel on
More than I am
When my pills kick on
They tell you be strong
But really who is strong
Gotta answer for that
Then maybe we can get along, Vanny.
-
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I know it's not enough... Fuck.

Kurt Cobain

It's really no reason to get excited about anything in life. You could be the best at whatever your doing and get no respect. Turn around and see the worst being praised like gods of modern today. Fuck the magazines, the blogsites, and most of all the cult needing people, in this lonely world. The comfort only comes from emails from fans who sincerely wanna see you win. The doubt and guilt you feel for not being where your trying to be yet. And all in all, you just end up feeling rushed. Never having time to appreciate the process of getting better and building. Super ignored. Superbly beaten. The moods different if people around actually thinks there's potential. But somehow, you nevermind it and keep going. Fantasizing death like it's some sort of miracle. Seeing the pure child in yourself being taken away like another sad custody battle between life and whats expected of you today. Be cool? Don't worry? Here, have some drugs... but don't take pills, they're bad for you. Don't smoke ciggarettes, you'll catch cancer. Don't, don't, don't, don't don't! is all i fucking hear nowadays. I usta not understand alotta things about life and people, but now I do. Not fully, but way more than I did. Learning everyday. Just tryna learn to keep my mouth shut more.

Being an artist sucks everyday of your life.

They can't imagine what it's like to be great or the sadness this life creates - Johnny Polygon

night.

That day will come......

Just Tonight - The Pretty Reckless

Brandon Boyd.

Try not to stress on what your going through in life because it's just a phase....

wish you were here - incubus

Lord don't let me forget to enjoy

Maybe.

The odd things that go on in my mind.

Am i blue?

It's me now

Motivation - Verse I did for T-Pain

Download HERE

Shady's verse on "I Need A Doctor" With Dre.

"I told the world
One day I would pay it back,
Say it on tape, and lay it, record it
So that one day I could play it back
But I don't even know
If I believe it
When i'm saying that
Y'all starting to creep in,
everyday it's just so grey and black
HOPE, I just need a ray of that
Cause no one see's my vision
When I play it for 'em
They just say it's wack
But THEY DON'T KNOW WHAT DOPE IS
And I don't know if I was awake or asleep
When I wrote this,
All I know is,
You came to me when I was at my lowest
You picked me up,
Breeding life in me,
I owe my life to you
Before the life of me,
I don't see why you don't see like I do
But it just dawned on me
You lost a son
See this light in you,
It's dark
Let me turn on the lights
And brighten me
And enlighten you
I don't think you realise what you mean to me,
Not the slightest clue
Cause me & you were like the crew
I was like your sidekick
You gone either wanna fight when I get off this fucking mic
Or you gone hug me
But i'm not an option
Theres nothing else I can do cause...."

V.

The Relaxation of how my mind would sound

Jawns of today

Iphone pics

Like Everybody

Whatever tomorrow brings

"It's okay to be in fear, just don't let the fear drive you to live in it forever." Part my mom, part me. Lately, I just been bugging out tho

Sun Wraps is coming.

She just likes to fight.

She just likes to fight - Four Tet Remix by Vansolo

downerfactsorryaboutsayingthisbutfuckit.

Yo sometimes i feel like i be too high to take care of my own career. It takes alot pop up successful at anything and I barely like people enough to be cooperative. Rappers suck, yet you have to praise them, gotta TALK to people EVERYDAY justa let them know y'all still cool.. like damn.. I don't even like talking to myself everyday, let alone somebody else. Life sucks hahaha or maybe i'm just stupid. I be wildin yo. it's wierd when somebody you love doesn't support you man. I hate feeling like i'm tryna impress people I actually know with the shit I do.. Knowing nobody really likes the shit i'm into or shit that has any sort of creativity. I hate everybodies itunes. Everybody wants to be on some "hey sign your name here shit", I don't care bout you now, but when you blow i'll sell this on ebay, the fuck.... then they diss me... then they crawl back... then repeat... it's irritating. The suggestions about the artistry... Maybe you should make em dance. I don't even dance, unless i'm high.. lol... Like I should care about MONEY, I would commit suicide the day I started too. Everybodies just BALLING huh? LOL. I'm sorry, i'm super poor... I starve alotta days, keep alota weed, hit alotta lows, and take alotta negativity. I don't know why God wanted me to rap becuase honestly I don't and never did wanna become a rapper. People in school wanna be things they not, and for what? Fame? I would rather be in school instead of rapping with all these problems I have.. When I use to go to those group therapy sessions, I noticed i'm not a baby. People in there was whining alot. Maybe i'm just afraid of jobs. Society is cultivatingly devastating. Ugly, miserable, hate worthy people all tryna one up each other when you can clearly see EVERYBODIES lieng.. Tryna be famous people and do things to match themselves with their favorite celeb idols like some simple minded teenager.Makes me wanna puke, cut my wrist, and jam incubus as I slowly die... Maybe i'm more anxious for death than afraid. I always have alotta time to think, but I don't really be that wreckless all the time. I make mistakes a fucking lot. I bully and scare myself. Even tho, I really have nothing to be worried about. I know God got me, but still.




Lyrics:

A decade ago,
I never thought I would be,
at twenty-three, on the verge of
spontaneous combustion. -Woe-is-me.-
But I guess that it comes
with the territory,
An ominous landscape of
never-ending calamity.
I need you to hear,
I need you to see
that I have had all I can take and
exploding seems like an imminent possibility
to me.

So pardon me while I burst
into flames.
I've had enough of the world
and its people's mindless games.
So pardon me while I burn
and rise above the flame.
Pardon me, pardon me...
I'll never be the same!

Not two days ago,
I was having a look
in a book
and I saw a picture of a guy
fried up above his knee.
I said, "I can relate,"
cause lately I've been thinking of combustication
as a welcome vacation from
the burdens of
the planet Earth.
like gravity, hypocrisy,
and the perils of being in 3-D...
but thinking so much differently.

Pardon me while I burst
into flames.
I've had enough of the world
and its people's mindless games.
So pardon me while I burn
and rise above the flame.
Pardon me, pardon me...
I'll never be the same!

Never be the same, yeah...
Pardon me, while I burst into flames...
Pardon me, pardon me, pardon me.

So pardon me while I burst
into flames.
I've had enough of the world
and its people's mindless games.
So pardon me while I burn
and rise above the flame.
Pardon me, pardon me...
I'll never be the same!

Never be the same, yeahh

i be high. i be low.

Amazing bluntman.