Friday, April 30, 2010
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
No matter how much darkness they throw, Light will always shine.
Where there's Angels, there's demons.. And on that note, I don't mind people leaving. I rather be shown upfront what to count and whatnot. With everything I don't have is appreciation for what I got. Success is a step, it never ends. The ladder up is the hardest climb. With visualization, why would there be a doubt in my mind. Some things happen in time and some with moves. Before a building is built, the blueprint is made. Everything that's going on now is my study time. New page is the family. The only family i'll put first. Keep keeping career bussiness to self, only a few need to know the future. Be prepared for jealousy, hate, envy, and negativity.. It's spose to be there. Everything comes with pain Vee. Even Love, especially Love. Just stay true to you. That's the only person you need explaining too.
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Sunday, April 25, 2010
Saturday, April 24, 2010
Parachute
From the bottom of my heart, the world looks different. My daughter being born has made my life change. The sky's look brighter, and I don't feel so ashamed of myself anymore.. I feel PROUD. When the son I had was forced on me, it killt me inside. For one becuase I didn't want the person to be his mother. Two, I never even wanted a son, plus the way it happened was all fucked up. I was little boy, who made a mistake, the chick is older than me.. Her parents attacked me & got child support on me when i was ONLY 18. Shits true what they say, this world is a concrete jungle. A battlefield. Everybody in every country have their battles of their own, but this is ours.. Not only mine because this shit can happen to anybody. Not just me, so when I put my bussiness out there, i'm only tryna help y'all learn from me. So, it doesn't happen to you. Alotta people aren't wise to the father thing. The truth is, you can't be a father without a functional relationship with the mother. I definately don't have that for many reasons, but i'm not gonna bash her. I'll let her do it to herself. Another thing is, how can you love a child without loving the mother, above all the reason for children are creation. It's like having a lab partner that makes you do all the work in class that you don't like. Think about somebody you don't love, even like.. Telling you, yo gotta do this, this, and that. Bassicly owning you. I chose a different route. I feel bad for Adam, but i don't love him. I tried too, just isn't there. It really kills me that he's placed in this situation, but it's nothing I can do, Law-wise. His mother and my fathers family chose to push me out of his life, so be it. I hope he's strong enough to get outta there someday. Hopefully he'll come to me in time, I would love to teach him what I know. But my daughters a Love at first site, I neva felt anything so real. You see, she can't wrong me, leave me, cheat on me, hate me, or disrespect me. She'll just Love me. And there's nothing more greater than that. Thank GOD for dropping an angel into my life in the time of dear need. You can't even imagine how suicidal i've been becuase it's so hard to cope with my past mistakes. Now, i'm putting more in my music, as in Carnage. But it's soooo much I gotta deal with ona Daily. You don't want this life i'm telling you. I'm just thankful my mom still believes in me & doesn't judge me. Becuase Honestly, women know how fucked up women can be. And that's just fact. I mean think about it, if a woman will disobey GOD, you don't stand a chance for hope.
Thursday, April 22, 2010
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Happy Poem
I love how i Love myself. I don't always have to talk. There's no awkward moments. I don't have to express my feelings. There's no std's with masterbation. I always like the music I play. I love smelling my shit. I love my farts. I love my favorite movies. I love my jokes. I fucking LOVE ME!
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
Monday, April 19, 2010
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Saturday, April 17, 2010
Friday, April 16, 2010
Monday, April 12, 2010
Sunday, April 11, 2010
Thursday, April 8, 2010
Nostalgia
Man, I remember when i sucked at rap..lol. I would just play around with it, and write flows in my room for hours when I got home from school. Dudes at my high school were all tryna rap, and I just wanted to be better than them becuase they would always ask me to flow. I spit my first flow prolly in 9th grade, and one of my friends said i sounded like Kanye West. At this time, I was just a dipset head, so i didn't really know how much of a compliment that was becuase i didn't listen to Kanye like that back then, my brother did.. I was more of a Killa Cam fan. As time went by I never took rap seriously, but i would always practice. I knew I had potential is prolly why. Later that year, my brother met up with a DJ that he started recording with. And he would tell me to roll with him to the studio, and I DIDN'T even wanna rap, I would just hop on verses for my brother shit, but then they was like "yo, yo shit tight..you should do some of your own songs". So, i strayed away from it for awhile becuase I was more into basketball. But then after the basketball dream didn't work out, I started writing. I don't know why, but for a couple years I was rapping like Wayne up until 11th grade when I FINALLY snapped out of it. IO told myself, i'm better than that & it's not really me. So I stopped rapping all-together during that whole year till about the end of 12th grade. When i was bitterly alone, and confused from Love. I remember texting my cousin n telling him i'm gonna rap again, and sent him this song I had did that day. He had text me back like man that shits tight. So I put all my energy, good or bad into my music. Bullshitted for awhile, started this retail job, thought about what I was gonna do with my life then said fuck it.. Quit that job and decided to pursue music. I've came up a little since then, but it feels good to know how much i've improved in such short time. And I'm only gonna get better is the cool thing about it.
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
Saturday, April 3, 2010
Thursday, April 1, 2010
Misanthrope
Dawg it's alotta fake shit that go on. I hate the world. This shit is pointless, everyday is a day towards your death date. Then to be reborn right back into this bullshit. I came into this world by a mistakenly occurence & now deja-vuly i had a mistake. Still fucked with my main bitch to the fullest who was fucking with this ugly little nigga like dawg fa'reel, And not even on no you know who I am shit, but on some bitch are you stupid, dumb, and blind shit. I refuse to respect these sluts, and hang out with these fake niggas. Whether it boost my career or not, I hate all these rappers, all these bitches, all my family, fucking everybody. I feel like committing suicide, but I have so many problems it wouldn't solve them all. I don't know why i was dropped on this shithole, and i don't give a fuck about my image. It's all bullshit, i hate the music game, but i Love music. I hate life to be honest, it's all the same shit. You meet a girl and want her to be the one, she breaks your heart. Go to school, getta job, start a annoying ass family. FOR WHAT? Lawsuits? I mean divorce & kids are big money for these hoes my nigga. Fuck this shit dawg, i'm done with this shit. VANSOLOEND
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