Wednesday, June 30, 2010
That Grind
I feel like I haven't been completed on the music tip alot lately. I haven't been fully satisfied with a few of the mixtapes i've put out.. Mainly becuase I know I can do a million times better than that. Ever since Veeology came out, and it became clear that I wanted to rap. People been dipping their taste on my creativity. Like, I need to do more songs, spit more raps, stop all the singing, blah blah blah... It drives me fricken crazy, but I gave in.. Even tho I wasn't pleasing my own standards or fullfilling my own potential, I did it anyway. Quick lesson on music, BEATS MATTER. The beats you choose are what represents you. (style wise) Honestly, Veeology was the ONLY mixtape i'm COMPLETELY HAPPY WITH. All this other shit has been for EVERYBODY ELSE. Till now, i just remembered this is my career. My music. Nobody helps me with my music, but me. Nobody helps promote my music, but me. Nobody finds my shows, but me. Nobody edits my music, but me. So "Fuck everybody mayne, just do you. I've said before, but i'm taking control of my career and my life. I'm changing things man, and i'm changing myself. If something hurts when you do something, don't do it. Then it'll stop. I think I expect too much outta people sometimes, but i'm stopping my mistakes now. Or at least i'm doing the steps too. It's been MY fault when i've depended on people to do something. It's been MY fault when I expected them NOT to do something. I or pretty much anybody can't control anyone and it's not that I want control, it's just the little things that don't take alotta time that matter to me. I do EVERYTHING for myself, and it does get tiring, frustrating, and a bit overwhelming at times, but I chose this. NOBODY else did. So it's up to me to be the forefront of myself. This is MY LIFE. And i'm ready to be that person.
Veegly fact
Whenever I escape emotion, the day can be enjoyed...
But Considering i'm just now realizing that I lost my bestfriend, this is one of my current moods
But Considering i'm just now realizing that I lost my bestfriend, this is one of my current moods
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Monday, June 21, 2010
My darling baby..
My darling baby from Van Solo on Vimeo.
My darling baby.. You know sometimes you wish moments would just freeze to cherish them forever, but they don't. So you do what any normal human would do, and that's create new moments of beauty. I may not be the best person in the world, but I am her dad, and that's ALL she'll know me as. It's amazing.PURE LONELINESS
Late at night, when you’re so lonely
your shoulders lean to the center of your body,
you call no one and you don’t call out.
This is dignity. This is the pure loneliness
that made Christ think he was God.
This is why lunatics smile at their thoughts.
Even the best moment, as you slip
half-a-foot deep into someone you like,
deepens to the loneliness in it
and loneliness that’s not. If you believe in
Christ hanging on the cross, his arms spread
as if to embrace the Father he calls
who is somewhere else, you still might hear
your own voice at your next great embrace
thinking Loneliness in another can’t be touched,
like Christ’s voice at death answering himself.
your shoulders lean to the center of your body,
you call no one and you don’t call out.
This is dignity. This is the pure loneliness
that made Christ think he was God.
This is why lunatics smile at their thoughts.
Even the best moment, as you slip
half-a-foot deep into someone you like,
deepens to the loneliness in it
and loneliness that’s not. If you believe in
Christ hanging on the cross, his arms spread
as if to embrace the Father he calls
who is somewhere else, you still might hear
your own voice at your next great embrace
thinking Loneliness in another can’t be touched,
like Christ’s voice at death answering himself.
Sunday, June 20, 2010
Saturday, June 19, 2010
Music & me
Music: What's wrong with you? Your gonna stop chasing me when i'm the ONLY thing in your life with the pure chance of making you successful. You tired of stressing right, You tired of getting slept on right, you tired of being "here" right?! Then get your mind right fam. Who's gonna be there for you? Who's been there for you? Who did you run to when everybody turned their back? What gave you hope? What gave you something to stand up for and believe in? ME. Nobodies gonna understand you like I do. Our conversations have been so intense lately. I can see your struggle and pain withholding you, but you can't let things distract you. You are the answer to your own life. Whatever you want, you have to go get. I'm not the opposser, i'm the oppossed. What you wanna do with life is not so crazy, it's amazing. Don't pass up potential. I can make you good, but i'm not EASY. You gotta work for me baby. You gotta want it. Stay on your grind Love. Patience is virtue.
Friday, June 18, 2010
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