Saturday, December 31, 2011
Thursday, December 29, 2011
"Indian Vibes" Mixtape Download
DWNLDHERE
Indian Vibes is about placement in my life. it's like thoughts of where i'm at now. i'm working on alot of other music, but i have to make time for myself ya'know to reconnect to my inner self and let me know i'm okay once again. to ya know, keep shit moving. enjoy this shit. spread it. i'm speaking trill even tho these ho niggas use the term so loosely. but y'all know me, or should by now at least. peace n love sun
Wednesday, December 28, 2011
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
Monday, December 26, 2011
personally done.
going to silence. i've said too much over the past 3, 4 years. my life hasn't been real, just was imagination that i thought would last forever. done tho. peace sun
Sunday, December 25, 2011
hey.
merry christmas to the world. practicing higher self now. says the drunk version of me. dropped my daughter a present last night and aint even with her today. im so disgusting. a bad dad perhaps? i didnt take the bullshit for the sake of my family. hooray austen i guess. thats drunk text tho. im not gone say too much. enjoy your day
Saturday, December 24, 2011
Friday, December 23, 2011
eyes opened
man. shits crazy. time is fast. i miss l'eau, but the disgusting energy of shit going on just pushes me to a corner. fuck it tho. i can't keep up being in peoples good grace. fuck you. and all the lies you fabricate to be the truth. so thank you for the shame you pass. after last night, im done thinking people have good intentions. im the illest rapper in houston literally, niggas is crazy. i gotta stop accepting things without checking them fully out first. im bout to shit on y'all niggas. like im bout to make all these wack ass rappers in houston quit rap. fuck being friendly along with my X bitch. but thats just some i miss you shit, not you, but the you usta be shit. has to state that for another protective order comes my way. im stuck between not causing problems having a problem having a slight solution and not knowing what to do. i know what i might have to do. mondays the day i guess. not too much on that tho. im changing. becoming more cold than i was before in a different way. tryna see if i want to go to atlanta or look for a damn job. shit sucks sun cause i got work to do. choices man. plus i need a vacay on some lonely star shit. yo what is pain really? a mind thing? what is love? a temporary relief of pain from the outside world, a universe created only between the two of you which holds you accountable of all things downward in the future. kids fuck you up. suck the life out of you and still ask you for it all. but we're all kids right? haha. i wonder why people so worried bout other people. he broke. he dont got this. he blah blah blah. i am broke. poor. and hungry. excuse me all you comfy people. i guess thats why yall dont chase nothing... cause y'all so good and comfortable where y'all at. let these niggas tell it, they got it all hahahahahaha. niggas is crazy man. i cant grind with mothafuckers. fuck all this jealousy and temper tantrum bullshit, i only deal with moods from my daughter and her mother apparently. fuck all you other niggas, and bitches. i need to cut down my twitter followers on twitter. i dont talk to nobody. i dont dm nobody. fuck these people man. i dont need them. process one in the freeing artist i guess. blood in my mouth so i close it. dont open up a landfill. protect yourself at all cost. shit, shoutout to lupes words i never said. trill shit. act like you know, act like you know. word to my brother screaming y'all got a legend in this ho on the mic last night in the function. houston is dry with this wack friend game shit. by my friend, and ill help you out. word to all these dumb "models" fucking and getting naked for shoots. including my baby**ther. too cold tho. too cold austen. i cant feel anymore. ive accepted nasty reality and have just decided to live. fuck. i need a spanish bitch and a blunt, fuck i gotta stop getting rid of hoes for my old girl. i gave up some bad bitches man. lol, its no point in shit being secret now huh haha. stop it tho. stop it 5
Thursday, December 22, 2011
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
women, are all we're ever gonna know of paradise on earth
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Cold
faded.... faded... faded... not a good look though. im chilling. the big lebowskis chilling. fuck these nggas. fuck these niggas ya heard meh. ha. im such a prince in the arms of darkness. fuck it tho. cause man im pretty haha inside joke but whatever. fuck my family b, y'all niggas gonna hate me harder when this shit pops. word to my *MmmmS loose pussy, both. character, i am. still tryna figure how to dodge jail. but i will prevail on my suicidal trail. stay outta my world b, you not needed no more. or wanted. im going to enjoy this moshpit as much as posible. im jamming you can by body language right now. so raw. 22, misunderstood.. already. now its tension in the air when im scene out. niggas hate, get off of my dick let the message relay. ha. i love my tough ass rhymes. guess i gotta change my style to be a pop star tho, but no lie its hard for me to lie and make popfly music. popfly hahahaha thats funny in itself but whatever. songs about partying, fucking hoes, and drugs, drugs drugs drugs. so interesting of a topic i guess. rap game crazy. i dont have enough money to be in it. fuck i dont even have enough to eat. i live by the beat til the end of the week like you live check to check. if you dont move yo feet then i dont eat so we like neck to neck. ha.
Monday, December 19, 2011
Realizity, 22.
You have to be able to speak for yourself. You have to let things out. You have to be honest to sleep at night. I listened to "22". with a couple people last night and got scared. I always get these little frightens about listening to my music with other people just becuase of the way it is. It's sometimes uncomfortable when your around people that would really never say a thing your saying. The harsh realities of the energy and experiences I deal with. I'm the best when alone because I know it's what I want to sound like right now. More than that I just have to realize fuck what people think (again). This is what I want to say. I have to accomplish the mission of getting my visions out just the way I want them. Thats what being an artist is about. Even though I feel like a dumb stupid joke at times, i know what the truth is. So I say that to say that this 22 project is explicit. Very explicit. You have to go in a quiet room, put on headphones, and just jam. Words are tough. I'm saying some tough stuff. Just.. be ready
Sunday, December 18, 2011
22. (Meaning)
The 22 is also known as the master builder. It is potentially the most successful of all number and it can turn the most ambitious dreams into reality. The 22 has the intuitive insights of the 2 combined with the practicality of the 4.
22's have to be practical otherwise they waste their potential. 22's can deal well with a great variety of people and they are inspirational and intuitive, practical, self-confident, visionary, idealistic and have good common sense.
Like 11's, 22's have to work towards the realization of larger goals that are beyond personal ambition.
Career choices for 22s. - Business person, politician, entrepreneur, leader.
22. as i'm 21 currently turning 22 on 2/6/2012.
Symbolism:
I'm going to take myself to the highest plane in which I was created on this earth for. My higher truest self is going to seep out to touch the gods of the turning tide. I will be successful. I will become man. above all. above all. This mixtape/album will kill the liars and expose the truth from the God who keeps me alive. Live. Live. Life.
22's have to be practical otherwise they waste their potential. 22's can deal well with a great variety of people and they are inspirational and intuitive, practical, self-confident, visionary, idealistic and have good common sense.
Like 11's, 22's have to work towards the realization of larger goals that are beyond personal ambition.
Career choices for 22s. - Business person, politician, entrepreneur, leader.
22. as i'm 21 currently turning 22 on 2/6/2012.
Symbolism:
Represents the movement, the infinity.
Symbol of the manifestation of the being in its diversity and its history.
Represent the creation, which is the manifestation of the 21, according to R. Allendy. It is amongst other things the sigificance of the "principle of differentiation, 2, being added to the initial differentiation of the Cosmos 20 to subdivide the parts and to generate, by this means, the complex mechanism of the nature - 2 + 2 = 4. (...) With 22, we see the play of the opposite particular initiative - 22 = 11 x 2 -, to balance in the natural mechanism".
Symbolizes the end of a cycle, and for the man, the end of the obligatory reincarnations on the earth.
I'm going to take myself to the highest plane in which I was created on this earth for. My higher truest self is going to seep out to touch the gods of the turning tide. I will be successful. I will become man. above all. above all. This mixtape/album will kill the liars and expose the truth from the God who keeps me alive. Live. Live. Life.
Saturday, December 17, 2011
Friday, December 16, 2011
I say this shit all the fucking time.
my energy mold is blue. not a blue light. more like a black so dark that it's blue, sort of purple. i've let myself down today. i will express forgiveness of the great dear lord we all have up above us. meditate my body. free my spirit. wash away my sins. it's just the overload im dealing with really. dead souls who don't ask no questions. yeah yeah, make me feel uncomfortable til my castle of comfort is finished. i get it. "niggas". i will awaken my mind and depress the depression behind me.
Thursday, December 15, 2011
My boy made Van Solo tees, cop one for ya boy vamily
Shits tight man to have support. peep the website. people are rocking em in the streets of H-Town. vansolotees.blogspot.com
Wednesday, December 14, 2011
Tuesday, December 13, 2011
early.
lot of stuff going on under the sun. morning. im up. kinda been up. but i dont want to overdo the sleep to kill time right now. looks like i gotta do something crazy. its sad tho.. how this monkey see monkey do game works, but i gotta protect myself i guess. gotta stop believing everybody intentions is good towards me. word to my fathers 3 day lectures. i feel weird. just an outsider really. guess they're used to me being in the hot seat so shit just be like i'm with you when nobodies against you, but when there's opposition i'm riding with them with trying to make you look/feel guilty. but i'm on your side.. whatever. game face. "blood on ya face, ya big disgrace". i'm up and alone so i'm going to catch up on some recording. god send a way, i mean a day.
Sunday, December 11, 2011
Thursday, December 8, 2011
Wednesday, December 7, 2011
8:26 Wednesday Night.
i'm tryna get it together sun. i'm tryna get it together sun. It's crazy how people get a spot and instantly start looking down on you. I really don't care about my family disowning me. I don't want love I have to work for... and i mean that literally. I recently see that I just want to be alone. My own zone, it's not even a turning back thing, it's just a realizity check. Once this dark moon passes and I finally see some light at the end of this devil forsaken tunnel I will be one again with the universe and happy. They will be the same. All I can say is, i'm sorry for not "working" consecutively for the past 3 years. who cares. wooptyfuckingdo, these niggas have and dont have a damn thang. i'm a 21 years old musician, 4 years is long enough to transition anything. the depressed sloth phase is over. I will provide my own shelter. I will provide my own energy. I will not be involved with the doubters, the naysayers, the praisers of money since they see it as higher than them. I will no longer accept. I will no longer accept. I'll let them feel oh so good about themselves while i'm deep in the muddiest waters of darkness. Underworld phase. You wonder why celebs don't help their "families" cause "family" only wants money. They don't care about your craft or what your going through personally. They just want that check. I hope my family starts up a successful business for pushing each other down. I don't need to be treated as a mook. i'm an open book, a shining star, a beautiful piece of art. my natural warmth can make the dead inside feel alive. Cause they're mostly dead because they can't understand or hop on the train of why people are like this. Nobody deserves to feel alone. its one of the worst feelings in the world. but, enough on that.
Tuesday, December 6, 2011
Monday, December 5, 2011
Sunday, December 4, 2011
Tuesday, November 29, 2011
2011 - 10:47am
if you ever get to a point where everybody else is so perfect around you and your always just the problem, then of course... no doubt, you get the fuck outta there. thats whats going down. my daughters mom tryna lock me up since i can't prove that i raised leau just about her whole life so jail may be the final income. or suicide. whichevers first. fuck my family. fuck habba. fuck them all. so besides sleeping in my cold car last night, im apartment searching today. catch me in the hood
and oh me, i still got music to do
and oh me, i still got music to do
Monday, November 28, 2011
Friday, November 25, 2011
Jay Reatard
"I Know I'm not gonna be able to make records when I'm dead. I'm not dead right now so I wanna make records, it's that simple really".
Drunk. fuck
mannnnnnn. fuck showing out. fuck fucking hoes. fuck all the decisions i've made. fuck you succubbus bitches for ruining my fucking life. i was a love child. i wasn't born to lose or feel suicidal. i was born to give, to the earth and show compassion like an actual fucking human being. you beings arent human, your animals so fuck your stupid ass metaphors to be aliens. fuck you hanna. fucking fuck you i hope you fucking die you evil fucking bitch but i also hope you live to see me shine through this torture youve put upon my soul since ive fucking met you. do you know how many girls i turn down? do you know how proud of you i was? To have met somebody that i was thought was lifechanging and constantly devoted my whole life to you as in 4 fucking years of being your fucking everything. sitting through everything with you, making sure you keep your life together...... ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh IM NOT FINISHING THIS POST. SHUTUP AUSTen.
Thursday, November 24, 2011
Sunday, November 20, 2011
7:59 PM (MissU)
"havent seen me cause im tired of getting looked at, cause everytime a nigga see me i just look wack"
"cause babygirls a queen... but the queens just a pawn with a bunch of fancy moves... and she's made me a fiend... I'm going through withdrawals 'cause I got nothing to lose"
"I keep on running, keep on running
and nothing works
I can't get away from you,
no
I keep on ducking, keep on ducking
and nothing helps
I can't stop missing you"
"It's like I'm her new nightmare
She ain't escaping
It makes me feel a bit complete
yeah
Knowing someone you love
Don't feel the same way about ya
Memories, they soon delete
hmmmmmmm
A couple weeks no talking,
I seen my baby
I've missed you so damn much,
heyy
I wish we could start over,
I told my baby
This what this bitch tells me,
She said"
well.. that was awkward... lol
shoutout to drake. my ex loves you. but thats childish austen. childish. as well as the others who got a touch. but its cool i guess. my lady isnt my lady anymore and i feel like a newborn baby. my stomach hurts and i have to puke alot. and the anger leads to this impacting serious depression wave throughout the whole day. i guess congratulations to the dudes that got it, we shared a prophet. thats nasty. ha-ha-ha. da-da-da.
but this worlds optimistic
Saturday, November 19, 2011
Health
They want to kill us. Take the population down and control the earth with new world order. Flouride (toothpaste), meats (bug disease/souls), soda (corn syrup high cause of diabetes) cereal (metal shavings), etc.
Friday, November 18, 2011
Lighters
"Now you wonder why he does it,
how he does it,
Wasn't cause he had buzzards circle around his head
Waiting for him to drop dead, was it?
Or was it, cause them bitches wrote him off,
Little hussy ass fusses, cause f-ck it, guess it doesn't matter now, does it
What difference it make?
What it take to get it through your thick skulls
As if this aint some bullshit
People don't usually come back this way
From a place that was dark as I was in
Just to get to this place
Now let these words be like a switch blade to a haters rib cage
And let it be known from this day forward,
I just wanna say thanks,
cause your hate, is what gave me the strength"
Thursday, November 17, 2011
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
6:51 PM
i'm in trouble, seeing double. Play Quiet Storm in a dark room. i'm sober now, shit is hard. boredom boredom boredom. Not really into letting any thoughts out, but i was on twitter today. Wrote a song. tight. decided to ditch some "friends". tight. Niggas is crazy, why can't we just smoke whatevers in the blunt and be friendly. haga. haha. whatever. Michael Franks "in the eye of the storm" is like theme music though. Plus, "Tiger in the Rain". I really shouldn't be in this much trouble this young. She hates me, i think its funny. But i can't care, my lifes a nightmare. and i hate her more cause im really the only one suffering from it. not dwelling, but people are evil in this world yo. Be careful, please be careful about who's around you is all i can say. Like if you can't feel the love, get out of there. lol. seriously though. life is crazy. and it can get mad depressing really fast. everybody mad at me cause i've lost my sense of humor and dont wanna play. There's no way i can feel the way y'all feel anymore. Y'all don't know what I know. or more then less, feel what I feel. whatever though. im banging the michael jackson tape i was doing now. the song about me becoming my dad scares me. like i can't even finish the recording. people dont deserve to hear that anyway. dont really care how dope it is either. im sick of people not appreciating my music. its main thing that sucks being underground, plus financial of course lol. i dont care tho, what the fuck they want me to be? a construction worker? a nurse? a costumer service rep? fuck that. i dont fucking care. houston is fucking killing me. i need to get to california. might just have to slab it out in my car like fuck it. and go from there. or maybe london, they're unemployment last a lifetime and they like music. ha. who knows. i think im ecstatic about my suicide decision. i cant wait to see the look on gods face, get it?
That's cold.
Damn, you was cheating on me the whole time. How could you just fuck other people like that and lie to me straight about it? offer lies? i'm fucking stupid. Now i'm spose to pay you and keep this on my conscience for the rest of time. the boy in me wants to run, but I just want to walk home. God im sorry but i found an exit. the faster the fund raiser, the quicker.
Monday, November 14, 2011
Even in his youth.
Even in his youth [x3]
He was nothing
Kept his body clean [x3]
Going nowhere
Daddy was ashamed [x2]
He was something
Digrace the family name [x2]
The family name, he was something
He was born for your crew
I've got nothing left to prove
If I die before I wake
Hope I don't come back a slave
Even in his youth [x3]
He was nothing
Kept his body clean [x3]
Going nowhere
Daddy was ashamed [x2]
He was the same, he was nothing
Digrace the family name [x2]
Family name, going nowhere
Leave this one, for your brew
I've got nothing left to prove
If I die before I wake
Hope I don't come back a slave
Aye-Yeah!
Leave this one, for your brew
I've got nothing left to prove
If I die before I wake
Hope I don't come back again
I'm dying!
Even in his youth [x2]
Yeah, yeah
Even in his youth [x2]
Yeah, yeah
Even in his youth
Yeah, yeah
Even in his youth
Yeah, yeah [x5]
He was nothing
Kept his body clean [x3]
Going nowhere
Daddy was ashamed [x2]
He was something
Digrace the family name [x2]
The family name, he was something
He was born for your crew
I've got nothing left to prove
If I die before I wake
Hope I don't come back a slave
Even in his youth [x3]
He was nothing
Kept his body clean [x3]
Going nowhere
Daddy was ashamed [x2]
He was the same, he was nothing
Digrace the family name [x2]
Family name, going nowhere
Leave this one, for your brew
I've got nothing left to prove
If I die before I wake
Hope I don't come back a slave
Aye-Yeah!
Leave this one, for your brew
I've got nothing left to prove
If I die before I wake
Hope I don't come back again
I'm dying!
Even in his youth [x2]
Yeah, yeah
Even in his youth [x2]
Yeah, yeah
Even in his youth
Yeah, yeah
Even in his youth
Yeah, yeah [x5]
Sunday, November 13, 2011
I, I, I..
I can't feel wrong and remorseful about things done. got damn relationships fuck you up. i'm punishing myself whilst nothing really matters at all.
short thought.
i'm not low today. i'm not low today. its weird being scene in clubs. guess ima just watch movies to see how i should act lol. Goodfellas and Godfather on deck today. Been rolling with the mob got me in a gangster mood. haha not a mean one though, just wanna watch gangster shit hahahaha. i got 2 blunts of that eyes red. prolly be recording later with my boy sosa. our mixtape gonna be in the streets tough with all the connects im back meeting. yo, i'll never pay to be in a club, i'll never pay to be in a club. it's never that serious. i haven't really came across those problems though. i decided to stop the mind panic for a day and just relax. smoke some herb, watch some porn, do some music, say fuck it man. just enjoy myself. i miss my daughter, but hey i'll see her again soon enough. it's kinda unbalanced time with a job though. tryna stay on solid ground, dig me.
Saturday, November 12, 2011
Friday, November 11, 2011
Part 2. 8:11 PM
In addition to show how much I don't care about all the bullshit people trash in your face. I'm going to become a minimalist til the time it's time to go. Peace
Suicide.
Lately i've been hearing alot about suicide. Some (lets just say most) people think suicide is just a crybaby give up. Most people think people who commit suicide are jokes and its openly funny to disrespect these people. All suicides are not becuase of financial problems. It has a little of everything. I'm truly disgusted by some people in this world. I'm going to commit on my birthday, February 6, 2012. I want to leave the day I came in. I have no connection with this life, and money isn't worth it. I want people to talk about me and say I gave up. I want people to be as nasty to me in death as they are in life. I want every struggling person in this world to not feel alone in this injustice. I would attempt to start up a suicide pact, but I'm going to sacrifice my life as a prophet to beat this open slavery system we have here called life. My personal life has become alot for me to handle. It's crazy for a person to attempt to put barriers on your freedom over "money" that they don't deserve. I'm not agreeing with it, so instead of paying to the imaginary. I will pay with my life, they wanted to take my life, they have succeeded. I am happy just as happy as I will be on my born day. I wish you all well, take care
5:39
just woke up pretty much. rolling a blunt. last night was crazy. opened my eyes to shit thats going on in the hood. I got the offer to be in DBG. it's basically family. Sosa is family. I don't wanna speak too much about it, but who knows what the future holds. I see things happening, but it's really up to the gods. I don't want my fans to think i'm out or giving up rap in any form or matter. its just greatness takes time, i use to rush to do stuff becuase i knew i needed to do them, but now... i'm slowing down. things will come. i know what i need to do so it will get done. Y'all will see, me, alot. I'm gonna kill these niggas. these wack ass fucking niggas. shit is bout to be a takeover. I know they weak so what other niggas do don't matter to me. it's crazy to have a 1000 niggas dap you up and you think nobody even knows you. i'm breaking out of my shell. word to them strippers asses. I can't lose. I already lost and what goes around comes around its my time to win. I said fuck it to things I wanna let go. Shit is serious out here. Money is serious. Word to every foreign car with the gang last night. I can't honestly say I care about that shit. but i refuse to have my daughter come up anything like how I did. So with that, i have to shade my careless ways and strive to be the best. All rap is stunt talk, but it has a purpose i see. People love that shit. so i'm learning. learning the ropes of the hood. niggas came out poor so we want the best, i get it. 9500 ona ring and who knows what for the rolex, sosas shining. plus the 745 bmw. i'm not gonna say to much though. But having niggas say they feel you is a boost. Personally, my music is about to change anyway, due to changes in my life. I don't feel the same way on things as i used too. Therefore my music is going to turn into whats going on now. it always changes and progresses. not becuase of whats going on in rap ever though. i make music for movies, radio might be playing me though. You might not know what i mean by that though. Bassically thanks to everybody that fucks with me. I'm down low. i'm down low, but solos gonna grow. Drunk as fuck. high as shit. hold my dick. wheres her lips
I feel you my nigga ha
If i'm in your pussy everyday. Of course I can tell when you've gave it away. It hasn't been the same since. Not gonna say too much else about it though.
Thursday, November 10, 2011
kinda wish i still had this
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but i never actually had this, wishful thinking is just a pop up
Wednesday, November 9, 2011
new music
http://www.megaupload.com/?d=WGDGBJ61
i'm not in a good mood, but whats new. this musics great tho, enjoy.
i'm not in a good mood, but whats new. this musics great tho, enjoy.
Tuesday, November 8, 2011
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