My dear imaginary friend.

Come as you are, as you were, as I want you to be.
As a friend, as a friend, as an old Enemy.
Take your time, hurry up, choice is yours, don't be late.
Take a rest, as a friend, as an old memory.

- Kurt Cobain

Stargazers day

Happy birthday to my big bro Devinn. Iono if we're heading to this Jeezy strip club or some hotel weed/drank get together. Either way, can someone give me a couple pills? I don't want to feel. Peace

Just healed me.

This Tuesday in Houston.

Spelled my name wrong lol, but i'll let em know at the show.

Unimportant

There's nothing I shouldn't be use too... Thick skin is a must when your creative. Small minds is a bust, nutty... Fucking crazy to not like me, or still stupid. My raps is cold b, like no lie. Like I wouldn't lie to you. I'm bringing you music you need, music I need, music they need. Still get shots from dumb niggas who would rather just hear the G talk peep. When it comes to what I wanna create, i'm gonna do what I wanna do. Always. I ain't tryna please nobody, never have, never will. I walk alone cause at the end of the day you always are. You die alone, you born alone, you live alone. Ha... Guessing my career is more of a serious topic now. When i'm gaining respect in the H and getting ready to battle the minds of the not ready for change. I represent Houston ona higher level, on my level. And every og has barely taught me well, but the music has... A'lot. Hawk taught me about side chicks with "Chilling With My Braud", Wreckshop taught me to "Power Up" which means keep yo fucking confidence up and power fucking up, use everything as motivation, Big Moe taught me about my future love for drank.... Besides my first experience with it at 8. Dj Screw has made Screw music a soul relaxer to me cause things move fucking fast. Like dawg, i'm living my roots, bringing my roots, in my own way. I never felt the need to act with the Texas etiquette because that shits just not me. I talk how my mind tells me, not yours. I express my views in a very different way, but not from trying. Just because that's how I really am. I really don't act like nobody. It's funny sayign that, but I really don't. People are stupid and I can't take them seriously. I don't beast over nothing, except love I guess lol... but I don't even have that anymore. I'm just truly bored, taking punches in the mouth while i'm spitting. None the less, i'm having meetings about PR, plus shows, performances, tryna find some money to send/spend ahh....

Power up vanny 3

House of blues...... House of blues...... House of news...... House of blues.... I'm gonna be at House of blues..... September.... My mind is blown

Power Up. Update

Wow! Life is crazy! Last night my niggas was calling me and my brothers phone to tell me that i'm gonna perform Tuesday at Tab (Candy Lounge). Power up, power up, power up right there. I'm super excited because Tab is a big thing in Houston and a big crowd of people who really should hear me. So that's gonna be crazy. I'm excited! Like really excited, I wanted Houston to notice me and now it's happening. That musta been super exciting for my niggas though for that to happen. Crazy, crazy, crazy shit. Also, I gotta start showing face more in Houston. I'll be going out to more events, i'ma stop being a cry baby and try to be a grown up. It can't be that hard, long as I got drugs lol.... Haha whatever though. I gotta practice for this special performance tonight. Peace y'all, Vanny vAnny VaANNY ha

Life. Absolutely

But it's cool, i'm good, what else can I be.

New update.

I'm performing music tomorrow at the VIP Mixer at the SMI Poetry Jam tomorrow at 8PM. Got the text this morning and I said def ha.

Perfect.

Distractions, Sia & Zero 7.

Fancy a big house
Some kids and a horse
I can not quite, but nearly
Guarantee, a divorce
I think that I love you
I think that I do
So go on mister, make Miss me Mrs you.

I love you, I love you, I love you, I do
I only make jokes to distract myself
From the truth, from the truth.

Fancy a fast car
A bag full of loot
I can nearly guarantee
You'll end up with the boot

I love you, I love you, I love you , I do
I only make jokes to distract myself
From the truth, from the truth.
I love you, I love you, I love you , I do
I only make jokes to distract myself
From the truth, from the truth.

If I kill myself i'm cool.

Justathought.

Sitting in this studio session chilling and thinking..... I'm dumb as fuck. I'm childish and I hate to lose. Like, i'm really childish and I hate to lose. Masked man, playing with your mind to make you think a certain way just becuase I can. I'm still in love with you, somewhat. Maybe it's just the positive thought and comfort I had with you. I know it aint what it is though anymore. Oh well, this shit stupid and I miss my daughter. A'lot, like a'lot. Like alot alot. I know what it is though. I thought about killing myself and ways to do it like half the day today. went to yoga class and felt better afterwords. Plus the crazy convo with my boy Josh about the future. Crazy. I'm really getting into some deep shit with this music. It's a trippy dangerous life in alotta ways. Oh well, I have no choice now. No turning back, unless it's death. Musics really all I got and my therapist. We're cool rap, i'm chilling. I want to stop doing music sometimes alot though, it's alot. Guess the best way for me to express would be my line "when unappreciation takes off my warmth". Ahh, lifes funny, crazy, and boring.

Tight.

Screwed up by Vanny

Pink Sky Playlist.

Pink Sky sighting

Word to Kev.

Vannyalive.

When I actually think about it, i'm rich now... I have good friends, a beautiful daughter, an amazing talent of being able to create music, health, my brother, and my mom. I'm good b. But getting out my dreams is the next step to mature life. Music has became a feat, enemy, and obessive love to me. It has taken over my mind, soul, and body. So I WILL NOT LOSE.

Shoutout my boy Cheko

The mural he's doing in my room is gonna be so sick. Good energy baby.

Pink Sky. Download this. The World Has changed.

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Last night was druggerly crazy tight and I had FUN. ha

I said I had fun because I usually never enjoy myself when I go out. People are always weird and asking me weird questions, but last night was cool people and cool toxants.

Van Life: House Party from Van Solo on Vimeo.

This happened in my boys apartments.

Abducted, robbed, and raped. The crazy shit is I know who the lady is. She has two kids. She stayed in the section across from my friends apartment. Sigh. Which is why I always say be careful and was protective of what you wear but...... whatfuckingever.

Winehouse.

seeing somebody die is always a wake up call. Especially over a cause of love death. Life can become a bad trip when you lose love. I know that first hand. Especially when you stop giving fuck and just want drugs and bad decisions. I mean I find myself mind deep in pills and syrup justa slow things down. And, speed things up. I'm still suicidal, thought it was a phase, but it's not. It's a way of life til I die, always on the edge until that on day comes. So I don't feel sorry for Amy, i'm glad she has found peace out this hell hole. I will cherish her music throughout my time as I already did. She was a great musician, but being a great musician comes with great undeniable pain. Being in tune with your emotions and thoughts is super scary. For me, it gets to the point where my skin turns colors with what I feel. Unbearable pain that I usually cure with a gram of weed or porn. I can't do shit unless i'm on drugs, I just don't feel comfortable. Don't know how things got this way, but fuck it. This isn't a mourning becuase I understand Amy and had I have the same financial outlook to afford what I really wanna do, i'd prolly be gone too in this sad and lonely world. It doesn't really matter anyway if it's not peace. So peace and love to Amy. I love your presence and pain in music, for I will do the same to show the world they're not alone.... but that just being said isn't enough to make me want to live. I'll create and perform until my spaceship arrives. Much Love

Amy Winehouse, Long Day

Love Bird Lost.

bruised wings on the lovebird. He can't truly fly anymore. He can just be content. He can just be busy or just be dead. There is no inbetween. He's either skyhigh or devil low, devil mood, devils pie, devils food, mind hurts, really hurts, he's a curse in his search for victory, misery, visits me, drugs keep tipping me, over. The over, things that keep happening, shit just keep happening, it's funny so I laugh it in, cry it out, vibe it out, hide it out, showing out, knowing thats not me, but that is my fee, to act like a G when I don't wanna be reached, when I just wanna be bleached, but instead i'm breached, of deep contact of I shouldn't of seen that... bring it back.. hold it back.... keep it down, keep it low, keep it proud, keep a smile, never frown, you don't want em to see you down, even if you feel the ground, hold ya breath and make a sound, you not a clown, you a trier, you not a seller, you a buyer, getting higher, little flier, mo fire, i'ma rider, death might really be the opposite of desire.

Kim.

Whoa

Spazz. Super Freestyle

Amazing. The life, uncomfortable grind

Game Crashing

Oh, Alot 3

Waiting for days to end like tomorrows gonna change,
Wasting away every second of the day,
Not wanting to sleep because it's not what I deserve,
Wanting to sleep because the sloth in me prefers,
Out of all the rest, i'm obsessed with the sleep
Biggest thing happening is the death inside of me
And the real cries, the voided feelings I ride with
In this sea all alone, myself as my sidekick
This gift that has cursed me many ways before
Not a chore, but a job
But both is both i'm sure
I needa cure, from this sickness that I call my life
I needa dream to become reality, not just at night
Dark days, Dark clouds, but I still smile
Me against the world has turned me into a child
Me against my vows,
Me against my child, support system when my backs closer to the wall then crowd
but this crowd full of crap that I fucking deal with
I just want to split my wrist, but wait i've already did it
Tried suicide every single time that i've gave in
Said i'm quitting and leaving but... everytime... I gave in
Running back to you because really in truth your all I got
Best friend, i'm loosing you and too ashamed to call my mom
Call my dad, call me dad, this is fucking crazy
Everybody say just wait, but the same people are the ones hating
Topsy turvey I can't ever seem to find balanced ground
Well i've found, but with that ground.. has drown
Nother tide, nother lie when you said you loved me
Gave you my all and all I have is debt and nothing
If i'm nothing, do not cry when I disappear
Lose my truth, find your lies away from here
Far, far, far, far, far away
I will stay, not stray
But i'm not okay
Still okay because okay is my only choice
I say I love you to myself now in a lonely voice.
But this, is my choice.
I do love you, but being alone is something that I can adjust too. No peace.

Courtney Bruneau

It might not be.. We might not meet.

Crashing

Tight. Fucking growing up and now I understand.

Before my huge weed nap earlier.

Gonna change the hook, I did it thoeder first time, forgot what I said though lol

Incubus. Incubus.

Silver Haze.

I recommend.

Yesterday was tight.

I love my friends.





Dev Shot.


Better View. Kev shot



And Kev put me onto this.... Crazy track.... Talking to God.... do peep.

And i'm from where it aint no....

Lol tight.

Ona Veegly note.

I'm performing at Zanzibar tomorrow night for a small poetic set. But it won't be acapella, it's gonna be a nice performance. My official show for Zanzibar is on August, 3rd. Word to the homie I met at the Poetry Jam. Going to Dallas on Tuesday, the 26th. To getta perfomance in and possibly get some van love out there. August 18th, i'm performing a 2 hour set at The Foundry Coffee shop in San Antonio. That's gonna be really intimate and cool, might end up doing some accoustic songs ha. I like those man. Might even have another show in San Antone this month! For some other good people that want to bring me out there. That's happening for sure, they're just looking for the venue. Either way, i'm dizzoonnnnnnnn lol. Just staying focused, eyes open. Wack shit stay happening, but I aint bitter. That only stops you my nigga. I'm peace, i'm love, i'm good energy, i'm good thoughts, i'm vibe. Life

Oh, Alot

Crazy night last night. Cops showed up. Too much weedsmoke in a luxury place all through the spot. can't trip though, everybody made it home safe and cuff free so we gooood baby. Gotta set up another spot to finish the video though. It ended up bout to be a secret show, but the cops fucked it up. No worries though, i'm still living. I'm still moving. Still making good music. Really good music man, fuck.

Pretty greeeeen bud all in myyyy blunt. Loft Party/Video Shoot tonight.

I'm finna be blazed, having fun, and working. Good energy, good moves. Interviews. 3 Videos may be shot otnight, ah. Let's get it.

Something New. For Fun. "H-Town Back"

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Devinn forced me on this hoe hahahahahahahaha
Crashmode though. Bitch

Ah, life 2

Feeling good today. Feeling a little unfuckwitable. Feeling like making music. Made some. Making more. I realized why I feel so outta place everywhere. Cause people are not people, just robots. I need to learn to not live off energy though. It's too much negate of it everywhere ha. Fuck it. Fuck them. Houston has become just a place of rest for me. I love my city even if the people don't love me. But when I get to where i'm going and give Houston a legit name again. It'll be for all the og's who inspired me. Every rapper I heard singing, and now i'm singing. Every legend who did some monumental shit out here putting us on. How the hell these wack niggas think they gone change something. Hahahahaha. Niggas be round this hoe doing shows alot and going nowhere... and the reason why is because y'all fucking suck. I get no shows round here barely, more so outta town and we allegedly in the same place. Ha. I'm finna put myself and my TBWNN niggas on. Or vice versa. I don't give a fuck bout much. Like really. Fuck it. Fuck what i'm spose to be, all the cliche shit is wack. All the i'm this, i'm that is wack. I am what I am at this moment and I might change the next. It all depends on the situations. I'll never do the right things. I'll never take life seriously. I'll never want to live in this death. I be quiet as fuck in public because I know to watch my words round these fake niggas and bitches. It's nothing but love with me though, but with that all everybody wants to do is hurt me. But fuck that. I'm good. "Cause I told yo ass, I aint neva coming round again, you'll never hurt me again, I don't need your face, i'm good like wind" Ha, Vanny Zone 2 is that shit mayne. Too illla. But you already know that. Yo. People NEED my music b, like fa'reel. So really, it's a blessing that i'm pushing this shit. I obviously can't overdose from pills, tried too many times and I still haven't gotta chance to buy a gun yet. So you mothafuckers are lucky that it be people watching and restraining me, as strained as I am already. I'm not mad, sad, or nothing. I just been listening to alot of my shit and some of Charles Hamiltons thinking what the fuck is wrong with me. I don't need nobody. I need myself. Only myself. When I was in Hawaii, my nigga Kai was like mannnn yo shit is tight so promo should be easy haha. I took heed my man, now! Vanny season baby. Fuck you and suck my dick til I bust if you don't like me. Ah

Cherish Life.

Nena's Funeral today. Heading out now. Shits crazy. I still can't fucking believe this. I love my bro Kevin. The universe is trippy right now. I'ma try to not do drugs anymore. Really cleanse myself and system. I want to enjoy life for what it is because we all could die today. I may be lieng about the drugs, but one day... When everythings together, I will stop. Maybe. Nah, i'm not. All in all, i'm glad she's not in anymore pain. She's free, but we're still here hurt and confused. I'm a little afraid of the future for my friends sake, but somehow he'll pull through this. He's helped pull me out of the dump I was in. I just hope he can do the same for himself. Fuck man, i'm crying again already. Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck. I love you Kevin bro. I love you. Damn. Peace.

My childhood anthem.

Still young and ready to die.

My boy just gave me this footage. Ha

Old habits come back, ha

Hey.. Life moves fast.

Incubus cover! haha short "Clean" by me

I need my whole house full of instruments.

Rihanna

Some light. Walter sent me this

Hello Hello Hello, How Low?

Hey, Waddup. Well the mantra of good news just always apparently seems to come at the greatest time. Still no regrets though, ah. More heat to sore my skin up. Chin up, steam down. Somewhere, not found. Lounge. Go around. Move around. Ha. At least i'm happy about something. Leaving Houston for good is gonna be a great thing for me. I follow that with my energetic quote, If i'ma die, at least i'm not going to die here. And also, if i'm going to slave.. at least it won't be to get by. When you give up things, Do you assume you won't get them back? Because when I give up things, it's because I never really had them and playing with possessions that aren't yours is always a dangerous game. And I play with fire constantly. Always losing, so far i'm used to it. Just haven't figured out if i'ma treat my next mate right or just go about things dolo after all. After all, my last name is Solo. Love, Peace, Weed, Happiness, And Change. Blue Love, Blue city

Todays Buddha

"In a controversy the instant we feel anger we have already ceased striving for the truth, and have begun striving for ourselves."

Yeah. Based.

Ohhhhh Marijuana

never left me lonely

Crash Mode

All 3. Fly into Freedom

Is Too Much Freedom Bad Freedom? - Van Solo

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Crashed this ho

Todays Buddha

"What is the appropriate behavior for a man or a woman in the midst of this world, where each person is clinging to his piece of debris? What's the proper salutation between people as they pass each other in this flood?"

Rizzy.

Rolls Royce Rizzy feat Young Cartoon - "Irene" from STLNDRMS on Vimeo.

My boy Rizzy's making moves. Looks like i'll be in ATL this month though. Grizzly Bears finding a new home. But more so, it means vizuals from the "Nice To Meet You" tape, plus new shit. Got people to meet and meetings to attend. I'm doing this shit to see the world and the world I will see.

Realizity

I just realized that everything that's happening is what I wanted to happen. I wanted to be away and alone so what am I crying and worrying for? I'm not for people. I'm suppose to be alone. All along, I knew this. I let you in, no.. You got in... Some kinda way and took the life outta me and i've been dead ever since. Crazy convo with my brother bout how I used to be and how things were. I didn't care back then and I really don't now. Just ina different way. I said i'm not gonna live past this year many times, many times. Whether I kill myself or not, somethings gonna change. As beautiful as this hole is I needa climb out. I make mistakes. I act carelessly. I get drunk and pass out. I smoke weed damn near everyday to suppress pain, not pleasure. All this circle hasn't done shit for me. I'm alone with everything i'm tryna do. Houston apparently hates me haha and my music which is CRAZY. Compared to all the wack artist out here "putting on". It's funny. I hate the rap game, everybody you speak too or meet is a career move. I have no way to keep up with everybody and what everybody is doing. And I don't support wack shit, alotta niggas who "rap" "make music" just fucking suck. Why would I when i'm giving my all and heart, displaying emotions that only make me get deeper into every feeling I have support you and your fake bullshit. Niggas aint stressed. And all they understand is my dope "beat selection". Lets be serious, I fucking hate clothing brands, megalomaniacs, and arrogance. I show love to everybody and all I get back is hate, from everybody. EVERY FRIEND I'VE HAD HAS BECOME AN ENEMY, WHETHER ITS NOW OR LATER. Mothafuckers be super jealous for no reason not knowing what i'm going through. So half the time, i'm tryna control myself from punching niggas in the mouth. And or Getting a gun and blasting myself. I talked to God yesterday in the shower and told him alotta shit on my mind. And his reply was, "Wait". I wonder what will make me happy, being ina fake world where everybody apparently loves you and at the same time nobody loves you. This fucking shit has ruined my life, i've ruined my life so it's obvious I want to die. I don't fucking care about fulfilling anything. Fuck a job, you gone die and have what? A hard unappreciated experience. And the way things looking for me I can't be a slave, I'll take the grave. Fuck the pain, the headaches, the insomnia, the libido, the thoughts, the memories, the everything. I'm going to complete two albums before I die. One rap and One rock. Then I will fill like i'm content and done with life. I got alotta shit to really say and getting it out is all I need to do. Til my bright side of suicide, Later

All I gotta say.

Oh yeah, Artistry.

Yo i've had a few clothing companies interested in me for doing shirts and like the fool I am. I've brushed them off because when I first started doing music and more into doing it I was just doing it for the music. I wasn't thinking of fame or money. I wasn't thinking about my image or whats good for ym career or no shit like that because I was in love. And my MAIN priority was my love. Being in love with my girl, she was my world. My Music was just the soundtrack to the love turned horror film i'm apparently starring in. Now, since musics all that I got. I realize that I've made various mistakes in my career. I don't take alot of things seriously like I should. It be niggas in my face with suggestions all day and some good, some BAD.. I don't listen to NONE though. Cause when i'm lonely and alone i'm too fucked up to care and thats a problem. I actually thought about stopping drugs just to get my strength back up. Cause mothafuckers on the side have been making bad decisions in my name and it only looks bad on me because i'm all y'all see. Whether it's somebody tryna beast they way in justa say "they helped" or somebody genuinely doing some bad shit, but with good intentions. It's always on me. Everytime some shows canceled, promoters ho, blah blah blah it's always on me. So what kinda team is that? None. I'm not mad at mistakes of the past, but wasting 3 years of my life when I coulda moved up wayyyyyyyyyyy faster and quicker does bother me. I mean, you don't get time back. And i've been pushed so far underground...... ah, never the less. I like getting stuff out in writing, it helps when I get tired of conversating with myself. Blah blah, the main reason of this post was to say that i'm not gonna fuck around with who i am anymore. I'm an artist of life and all its cruel ways, plus fits. I appreciate everybody who really just fucks with me. Your love is needed, I need that shit. I'm gonna make alotta shit happen before this years out. The Vanny trade is to be seen all around countries. I make music for myself as a person, therefore it's for the people ha. Haha I can run with that slogan. Peace n Love baby, I gotta go

Lotus FLOWER

I will beat this, this I will beat. See, when I smoke my weed i'm super geez. When I don't have weed and i'm lonely i'm downing outtt. Ah. Enough is enough. Fuck it. Fuck the past. Fuck the ties. Fuck the memories. Fuck the coulda hads. Fuck what we had. Fuck what I don't and can't have. I decided to dele my facebook today. Only the Van Solo page will be up. I wanna delete my twitter, but i'll just let somebody else post for me from now on. I just want to focus. I don't want bad thoughts roaming round my brain anymore. I got bigger fish to fry, ha. I'm worried about my daughters safety and upbringing. Really been bothering me lately, just feeling like somethings wrong. And when I went to go see her, I felt like dangers around. Especially with the way she stared at me. For I can't save her now, but I will. I just needed her to see that she's on my mind just as much as i'm on she. No fucking around baby. I got aids tested today and it was negative. Yay for caring about your health. Go get tested if your reading this, don't be a ho spreading viruses. Yo, we ina war! We ina war! As screamed from the revolutionary Campbell ha. I want to change my whole name, I forgot about some hidden punches from the past that was brought up to me the other day, ha. People are sick and i'm done with them all. The sun is dark, my eyes are bright. I just want to create my own world where i'm only hurt by me since I truly am my own enemy. Make love and compassion. If I don't have you in my life anymore it's because you aren't suppose to be here. I'm too old for friends ha, I tell myself all the time. It's all business and priorities baby. Ahh, i'm tough n shit right now, but later I might be worrying outta my mind and crying for Anika. Oh, how I put myself in dumb situations. Everybody knows how hard it is to reach me, but i'm really wanting to get back in-touch with my true self. I had it, but I went back to the past for a couple months and everything just got back fucked up. I messed my own strength up and didn't stand my ground when I should have because I knew these days were coming. All good baby, i'm fighting again for the natural feeling. Once I get it, i'll be... Goooooooooooooooooooood ha

Haha DaytoDay.

"Laughing with a mouth of blood from a little spill I took (Oh, what are you laughing at?)

"See i'd trade in my plot of land for a plane to go anywhere (oh where did you go?)
And I can't see the future, but I know it's got big plans for me (oh what does it see?)

"All of my old friends aren't so friendly, All of my old haunts are now haunting me"

Incubus. Incubus. Incubus

Needed

If your in Houston, I invite you to come.