1969

jus breathe

some thoughts are random. sometimes it may just seem like im wining. but im not, i promise. im getting back in the studio today actually. new vanny

had to throw this on here. fresh

riri

ipod

work of the allmighty

I want my dick grabbed. And sucked randomly. Show me you want me. What's a girl(friend) supposed to do?

Might slow down on the weed. Pills giving me a better vibe. Now I'm lieng cuase I like the highs.

Pennyroyal Tea - Nirvana

I can't even brush my teeth without looking for substance first. This shit is ridiculous.

cudder

Love

At the end of the day. I'm the frontier for young gold niggas not giving a fuck and raging til dreams awake.

Life so ugly I take drugs to make her pretty. But oh when I'm good. Oh when I'm good everythang will be chilly chilly. A delinquent is on the rise

I don't think I be thinking all the time. I think I just block stuff out like it didn't happen. I just drown myself with whatever substance I can find to not let it be real. Til it fucking hits. This is a problem. A huge problem. I think I'm outing myself about a substance abuse problem cause I can't make a day without distorting myself. This is so hard to live now. Its insane. I wasn't always like this I didn't need drugs everyday. Like EVERYDAY. I think its amazing when people are just sober. Like they can just stand and live life like that. My tolerance so high I just get numb and calm now. That lean make ya stomach hurt. That weed make you wanna smoke. That liquor make you wanna cup. Them pills comfort you to a need. That pussy satisfy a right now escape need. Nothing solves nothing. These demons have to be faced so I can live without forgetting everything behind and ahead of me. This battle has been for four years now. I can't believe its got to the point where I wanna/attempted to kill myself. People just think I wanna cop out but they just don't understand how I feel. No one does.

all i wanna do is listen to soul healing music. make some music to heal others. man up. they want veezy. ima break out soon tho. niggas dont know me no more. i feel far away from everyone. its really trippy knowing all ya true potnas dead or in jail. or just plain disappeared. where my niggas? dolo out this ho. niggas thats tryna clown gone be milky as fuck soon yo. fuck yall niggas. you dont get in my mind at all. everything im not gonna speak on but fuck you tho. life is unfair. like wtf unfair. i aint really just crying today tho. the gangstas say just keep ya head up and get it by any means. but those means arent a need for what im tryna be. homie wanna leave that shit behind but its the only way up out this muhfucka. niggas think musicians aint got bills lol. much love to all my new connects tho. my new shit will up and out soon. its gonna be mad different tho. im tryna change my mood. i think i was letting too much unnecessary shit and and people get in my head. hate muhfuckas tryna use me n take advantage of my kindness. im an asshole. im ape but im very nice at the same time. but you wont pull a fast one on me lil nigga. aint letting none of that ho shit slide. thats how i ended up wit cs. smh. watching everybody. but fuck that more so watching myself. i just gotta be safe. cant let niggas pac me in the passenger. im gonna be a big star. i think i just came to grips with it. now im feeling a little better and ready to go again. still alotta ho niggas ima end up beating up in this rap shit tho. so if im ever on camera assaulting etc etc etc rapper just laugh.

provider

I think not creating is killing me. I'm tired. But everything is not right yet. But I don't want people to say who's that guy coming from nowhere. Cause one day my name and face will just be popping up everywhere. See n say

I gotta make a change.

Pretty sure this is the lowest point of my life. I just gotta fix this shit. Its gonna get boring.

Fa'reel doa

still suicidal

This conversation with myself right now is so intense.

Weed now is just an anti-depressant.

Like whoa

ALLMIGHTYTV

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I been so dead lately. Not wanting to do anything. Especially musically.. it's all got so annoying now. Think im just tired of Houston. My inspiration has been gone. Maybe im just tired of all these cool people. Move yo body at the fucking show mayne. I been looking at people with too much disgust mayne. "not everybody is moving they body" I want to see things as beautiful. Im tired of crying and taking everything as a hassle and not as strengthening im feeling weak. cant even finish this type. going to my journal now.

God I say this because I want death. This life is not fucking worth the hassle and stress. None of this retarted shit matters anyway. Fuck money. Fuck your evil children who don't have souls. What do you want me here for? You took them, take me

Like 3/4 weeks ago. something like that.

Allmighty work

“Death may be the greatest of all human blessings.”
― Socrates

Pain hurt sadness and loneliness bottle that shit right up toss it away to the bottomless pit

Feel Me Baby - Video - Van Solo

Directed by ALLMIGHTYTV

Training Day Ft. Me

the videos gonna be crazy

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