Austens Life.

In the back of the woods and furnished fire,
it was me and two lovers,
Each one I desired... Required.. Inspired.... Wired... Wiiiiiiiiiiide
Losing my self soul, I just had to go hide.
Since pride got took when oncame the book, of very old chapters
Of my fathers past faster than mine, to eyes justa see where i'm going
Wait, I don't.. I don't know where i'm going
Slowing.. up... tryna be like, them...
But wait, i'm not like them.
Music and Love, a odd competition
Both requires ya time. Both requires ya life.
I wish it had took my life, talking to the suicide, voices of my past
That I had to outlast, at last, i'm alright
Just ina different, nother fight, i'm alright, I gotta be
It's only right. Alright. I'm dazing. I'm hazing. I'm amazing.
Pay attention to the statements. 2 Lovers, music and life
I love my life with her, but hate it at the same time.
Being broke aint fine, get fixed in time.
It's just loosing my life disappeared from my eyes.
On the road to darkness, solitude even around many, plenty
But you don't understand,
Either you haven't found yourself or you just too young man.
Young man I was when life got fucked
And haven't enjoyed nothing since
So my anger is the gift, the curse
When everything hurts, I just gotta go for mine
I just gotta swallow pride
Let things go, let it, let it show i'm letting go
Then I start to see control
And the wheel comes close.. close... closer... a lil bit older
A lil more focused... A little more open.... A little less lonely
Catch me in the crowd, showing my face
Making my name loud
With you i'm falling out, You see I die with one another
When I start to push music, I just be dying with my other.
When I start to please my lover, I be dying with my other, life..
Where music swears to provide, nights swear to excite, account swears to rise
Straight suicide, least it feels when it's right...
It's eitha, one or the other.. Love or superior other
And while my happiness is at stake
I know the legacy i'll take.
I haven't experienced a fight like this ever in my life
But everyday's just a battle of the war going inside.
I'll never run and hide, but I can't chase both.
I love you... I loved you... But I gotta let you go.