Love Lines Short Film coming soon. it's really a movie scene. be ready
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
Sometimes I just really wanna go off on people. Get the fuck outta my ear you not helping me. You not helping shit. Niggas just wanna dickride when they see me wit a "rapper". What kinda shit is that. Niggas don't fuck with me like that. Niggas just want the story. Niggas just wanna know they flights coming. Niggas just wanna watch. I can't get no fucking help, but they sholl is down for me though. Fuck that shit man. Teamwork make the dreamwork, but ain't no fucking team. Dev finally got me to realize that. He the ONLY person that's fully stepped up and doing shit towards the goal! I feel like straight cutting boyz out my life right now, but fuck it ima chill. Ima just keep my distance. Tired of fucking being helpless sun. I refuse this shit now. Get out my way if you ain't going my way
Monday, January 30, 2012
Sunday, January 29, 2012
Diamonds.
Warranty. Warranty. Warranty. I do what I wanna do, say what I wanna say. "Diamonds" is a all out Texas hit. "Like it's 94" is monumental party song, but deep southside Houston way. I like my new style. Fuck if niggas feel it. I be on shit niggas catch up too years later. When I'm famous its gonna be a problem and I'm only saying famous because of attention span. But, ya'know. Hate when I'm jamming my shit and catching the vibe n niggas just there stiff. Fuck. It happens to everybody though, I seen Kanye in the studio with Terror Squad before he was on and niggas was being mad loud, disruptive and disrespectful while legend was tryna make a beat, song. Look where "Terror Squad" at now and look where Kanyes at. Do the math. Not a diss to terror, but... it is what it is. That's why I have no love for you hoes. If you don't respect my craft now fuck you. If you don't respect what I'm doing with the legend I am don't respect when you see me on. When you see your favorite rappers asking me for a track. When you see me on tv shinin. Wit dem diamonds in my mouffffffffff huu
Saturday, January 28, 2012
Wow I'm 6 days away before I'm officially 22. All I can think about is how hard my life has been over the past 4 years. Just everything. The act of being the strongest. The truthful music I've made that's become so painful to bare hearing me down like that... but its true. I'm not saying life isn't hard cause its hard as it is, but all this is yet too much. This is a horror flick. You have to be in my shoes to understand. I still have fears. I fear a lot actually. I realized I have to cut time out with people who hold me back. I still love *anna, but its not the same. Dud.... e... h.... I'm writing this post from *annas bed just thinking. Man, shit is fucked up. But I'm not sad about it, just exhausted as usual. She always reminds me of how bad things are anyway though. Don't feel bad that I can't show love to you cause I probly should kill you, but that's gods job. Its hard with the riducule, but interesting enough it seems like I'm finally starting to get my respect. Which is that I go the hardest. These other boys backwash. Houston is watching. That's tight. The stuff I have in the wraps is way into the direction I want to take my work. The videos I shot in atlanta are amazing. Met some cool people and built some new strong relationships. I guess now with what and who I be around I really have to watch what I say on twitter. Even though I really don't care cause et miine, I spend it. Ha. Thank god this kurt cobain came on. Well, my frito pie is here so I'm out for now. Peace
Friday, January 27, 2012
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
Tuesday, January 24, 2012
Saturday, January 21, 2012
“I couldn’t handle the ridicule so on a Saturday night I got high and drunk and walked down to the train tracks and layed down and waited for the 11:00 train and put 2 big pieces of cement on my chest and legs and the train came closer and closer. And it went on the next track beside me instead of over me.” — Kurt Cobain
“So I became less manically depressed but still never had any friends, I hated everyone for they were so phony.” — Kurt Cobain
I started being really proud of the fact that I was gay even though I wasn't. - Kurt Cobain
I've always had a problem with the average macho man - they've always been a threat to me. - Kurt Cobain
“I'm gonna be a superstar musician, kill myself and go out in a flame of glory, just ike Jimi Hendrix” - Kurt Cobain
“So I became less manically depressed but still never had any friends, I hated everyone for they were so phony.” — Kurt Cobain
I started being really proud of the fact that I was gay even though I wasn't. - Kurt Cobain
I've always had a problem with the average macho man - they've always been a threat to me. - Kurt Cobain
“I'm gonna be a superstar musician, kill myself and go out in a flame of glory, just ike Jimi Hendrix” - Kurt Cobain
i just need the transformation back to my self. i love the dirty ol me. clean really. but my kicks be my kicks and my shirt be my shirt and my jeans be my jeans. pockets be low, making dumb mistakes, spending spending spending. fuck. im fucking up. so fuck my phone. i got time to do. or to kill. dont get too heavy on that tho. im thinking of videos to do. tomorrow, today i mean. stupid shit man. stupid shit man. i really might do it one night. all i want for my birthday is a pistol and some bullets.
Friday, January 20, 2012
glory.
I'm just on it. dropped I'm just killing in atlanta. got blue room on deck full of jewels. just gonna drop videos for it. just need a few things before i get that going. getting videos done out here in the A, meeting plugs, just working. just tryna stay focused, on the grustle making dreams come true. fuck it dawg. thats all i can say, fuck it. got me n rizzy new tape on deck. gotta finish that shit, shit just been moving fast and time been killed. got shoots for today and tomorrow tho getting these videos in. shit look like a movie scene.
Thursday, January 19, 2012
woah, thats not love. thats not love. thats never been love. thats been something else. that mad huh? thats everyday thats everyday thats everyday wowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww. im bouta get this money is moor than a saying for what we got going on. fuk that other shit. im driving bmw. word to gold grill. diamonds in my mouf. fuck it. you mad, fuck it. you wanna do dat hoe shit, fuck it. and with all the shit i coulda pulled but never did, just protected. you make yourself look like a stupid ignorant. person. fucking dumbass. but fuck that shit. it'll get handled, no worries. i guess the drugs got me shocked or something
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
Monday, January 16, 2012
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Friday, January 13, 2012
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
Sunday, January 8, 2012
dark side of the moon
letting the tide turn. all along by kid cudi being played now. i dont know the answer so hopefully i'll find one. my life has been so intense and dark in the past 4 years. its really taken a turn from the boyish me. i just have to be smarter and serious. i just have to handle business. still thinking about what is this all for and taking one to the head, but only time will tell. things change. and im letting them. i let go of my beliefs. that was the first step. the most major one.
Friday, January 6, 2012
Thursday, January 5, 2012
Wednesday, January 4, 2012
Have to be the strongest I can be for the sake of my life.
I just figured if i'm alone, I mide as well actually be alone. if you aint riding with me, I mide as well leave the seat empty til someone comes along who wants too. fuck these games. you want other things and people, that's fine.. but don't trap me and go out free. You know what I want to do. But this is what you made it. It is what it is. I was sucked into your games and the importance of my life was led astray. A demon in the form of an angel, what else could have made me lose it like that? made me make so many life threatening bad choices which would only leave me suicidal and with regret? that would make my whole family turn against me? that would make me hate myself in the process? I thank you... but i'm out... I gave you my all and I have nothing... Plus I owe you..lol... thats not a jab though. I'd rather just say this here than text your phone and fall back into the quicksand. I choose life
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
Work
I'm banging Lotus Blossom. did mad work today. Tracks are done. Tracklist kinda done getting worked out. It's beautiful. Knowledge and rap.
Realizity teaching
I have to announce that i am off binging. haven't smoked in a couple weeks now. I have been drinking a bit more, but i'm stopping that too. No more sex unless it's with my wife. No more denying the lord and the help. I'm going into abstinence cause disease isn't something i'm tryna come clean with. I have to slow down, i've got it all. I've gotten to choose any girl i've ever wanted. I've done alotta drugs. I don't need a buzz no more. I been in a cloudy haze and haven't been thinking straight. I'm drinking more water. I'm thinking more optimisticly. I'm looking more beautiful daily. Until a new girl comes along I can cherish and be faithful too, i'm deleting meaningless entries. I'm going into working out. I'm going back to basketball. I'm going back to track. I'm looking to stay working, for financial and music. I haven't been thinking, it's been a few bad thoughts here and there, but i'm okay. I see the sky, the future, where i'm at and where i'm going. I'm no longer going to watch. I'm going to enjoy. I'm going to live my life and stop punishing myself for the unchangeable. I'm going to see my daughter. I'm going to see my son. I feel more clear. I'm becoming water. I have no form. I overcome what everything is. I have been numbed by countless days of pain, hunger, and lust. I have not let the flow of life take place. I've tried to force the "my way" and that has been a fail. I have no idea what i'm doing at any time and I accept it now. I'm growing. Prolly why i take punches from these serpents tongues so well. I realize my life is on a bigger scale, I really have to be an example. I don't want to be in that stoner rapper lane. I think, and i think alot. Thinking is painful, but good. You have to stay on your job at all times. I'm not saying i'm quitting weed, but i'm quitting needing it. Just really learning about life. I will forever speak my mind, but I feel this binge phase of depression is over. I want change, so i will give hell until I get it. Not saying I don't get hurt by what I see... but certain things are being left behind for a reason. Sooner or later it'll be so far down the road that I don't feel it no more. I want to become man. I'm treating music as business now, not some crybaby talent show. I've ran a mock, I appreciate everybody whose fucked with me thus far, but I can't stay poor. I'm done being poor. I'm done with people being in control whether I eat or not. I'm done with hiding food so I can possibly get more tomorrow. I know that doesn't make sense but you have no idea what I go through. I'm done with these leeches. Don't take from me tis is what we can grant each other familia. no no negate, hello positate. positive, gimme gimme gimme. gimme gimme gimme
Monday, January 2, 2012
Sayings.
gotta ignore what people say. cause people say things they don't mean all the time. sometimes things are said out of anger, whether internally or external. sometimes out of happiness which goes the same way. and even sometimes out of comfortability. bottom line is, don't let things people say get to you. thats why I don't intake whats said to my heart. so say say say say what you want about me. cause me no give a hoot. baby baaaaaaaaaaby
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