Not giving up is an understatement.

I just got home bout 40 minutes ago.. it's like 4 in thee morning, i check some hip hop blogs, seeing wassup with thee music world n thee people who are "on" or tryna be "on". N this is one of thee reasons i hate music, it's so much wack shit getting all this dope promotion, like damn, i wish i had that, i really do appreciate all thee promo, love, n support people who listen to me give me, please don't think i don't appreciate it cus i really do. I don't never want anybody who ever meets me to think i'm famous, even if i get "famous". Cus i'm not tryna be that.. I just wanna make dope music for good dope people, i'm not gonna be tryna talk about how much money i have, or cars i drive, i don't understand why rappers think thats cool. When did it become cool to stunt on people who got you where you are? That's never cool, So i never speak on that type of shit. I speak on what's real. Some people don't feel my music, but real recognize real. I'm not tryna fabricate you with lies about me, or make you dance in some club thats boring as hell when you there thinking why tha fuck did i come here? I rather be chilling with my GF/BF watching a movie, having sex, chilling, or whutev is fun for you. It's gonna be some songs i make thats club material, but i'll never make a straight up club song. Fuck that, i barely go to clubs, only when i'm begged to go. I be in there getting approached by random girls who's being gawked by a bunch of dudes in oversized clothes talking shit about me cus my clothes fit, or my lips pierced [or was pierced], or nails black, or hats wierd, or whutev they wanna say. Thee thing is, i really don't give a fuck what people think of me, call me gay, say i'm lame..I don't give a fuck. Thee coolest thing in life is being you, nobody can be you cus your you. Nobody has thee EXACT same mindset of you, but you. It may be similar, but not thee total same. I used to be like what's so important about being original, didn't really understand what original was back then.. I took a year off rap in my senior year, learnt a bunch of shit about life, music, culture, myself, death, love, heartbreak, school, life lessons, shit i did wrong, shit i took for granted, etc. Looked at my OLD MUSIC N HATED IT! I always had creativity & i always had bars, but it wasn't me. I wasn't being me, i was rapping like wayne cus he [WAS] my favorite rapper back when i was DUMB. Snapped outta that BULLSHIT. Now.. It's all real, it's all me, "i'm not tryna be him, i'm not tryna be them" hahaha lol ["Hi, i'm vee".. "veeology" line] N i feel i made alotta progress in such a short time. I started back on my music shit in February of 09... Mayne..This was right when i felt my life was going nowhere... working at petsmart, [bullshit ass fucking dayjob] stressing over an unplanned pregnancy, dealing with my crazy psycho bitch girlfriend, didn't graudate from high school becus of one fucking state math test of TAKS [thats why i said "fuck taks testing" on "cinematic mushrooms"] hearing my mom n families bitching bout how i'm doing nothing, dad disowning me, brother leaving for thee navy..... [smfh] I was in a deep dark place in my life.. Then my old homie hit me up like "yo, you wanna rap.. I said, hell yeah!" Frist couple weeks i made some bullshit like how i used to make, but then i said, fuck that, i need to be real, i need to be creative like i know i am, i need to bring some shit out thats different, but oh so real, i'm not a gimmick nor a trick, i'm real. Made "Superr good" n it was a wrap, i started making non-stop dopeness of songs.. N i'm not gonna stop, i'm getting better everyday, i talk so much shit about myself n music, i hate on myself thee hardest, i was nervous as fuck before veeology came out, i thought people may not like it becus i was really personal in my music.. but i felt it was fucking dope, so i put it out! I love my fans, my supporters, i actually autographed a mixtape tonight, lol, it was funny wierd lol cool shit tho... When i see people who really like thee music, thats whut fuels my drive, keeps me going, i appreciate EVERYBODIES SUPPORT, I LOVE YALL! PEACE OUT DUDERRS' I BOUGHT A SEASON OF SOUTH PARK AT WAL-MART [IT WAS ON SALE SO I COULDN'T REFUSE LOL] TONIGHT SO I'M FINNA LMFAO AT CARTMAN, CARTMAN? FUNNY ASS FUCKING NAME! BUT I'M FINNA LAUGH TILL MY BLACK SCREEN COME.. TILL TOMORROW, LATER LOVES