Saturday, July 31, 2010
Friday, July 30, 2010
Revolution
Self education is the best education. People can give you contaminated information, and have you thinking it's true. The blind leading the blind is what adults and teachers have doing. Instead of telling kids how bad they are, how you dissappointed you are in them, and how they need to focus on school to get far in life. How about we tell them how great they are. How nothing can hold them back at a young age except themselves. How proud you are to have them here. I hate that people act like their the "best parents". Everybodies a "good" parent. Yeah, right.. If that's the case then why is everybody so fucked up.. Everybodies fucked up in this world, everybody has problems, shit happens to EVERYONE! Pain is inevitable. Pain comes along with love, happiness, and success. Pain is in everything. You can't stop pain from happening to anybody. It's time for things to change. I can't sit and worry about everybody, but I do know my niggas and (considered) family will be good. I don't need to be forced to help ones I love. I'm sitting in this hotel right now thinking about how far we can go. I couldn't do this without a couple people by my side, I honestly prolly wouldn't even be influenced enough. Things are most gleam when i'm with my team. Also when alone, I beam like Laaaaaa Laaaaaa Laaaaa Laaaaa Wait till I get my money rightttttt.
Thursday, July 29, 2010
I was graced with the curse of being a leader.
As I look up at the hawaii'n sky and city thinking to myself thoughts of power. I've learned the show isn't as important as getting IT out. People might've think i've slowed down by not accepting every oppurtunity for a show, but it's not that. I realized I need more respect when I step into a venue. Yeah it's cool getting dissed before performances, and then instantly applauded for how "different" and "great" it was afterwards. Proving myself is something I might never do, at least to myself with my standards. I feel like I've did alotta weak shit. So when I decide to put out again, i'll make sure it's the best you've heard. It's challenging, but fun. My mind is the ruler of my universe. I made mistakes, and caught road blocks that would of made people give up. So I understand when i'm crucified against a person who doesn't nearly have as much problems and obstacles as me. The things I face everyday would make the normal person commit, but I make it through. Not only do I make it through, but I continue to believe in me and move.
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
12:50 AM
Always reminded that I'ma soldier. A soldier moves when he has nothing. A soldier lives throughout pain and suffering to see a brighter day. A soldier stays on his side, even when he's out numbered. A soldier believes in himself. A soldier survives every stone thrown at him. A soldier wakes up everyday with no doubt. A soldier doesn't change his mind for the world. A soldier is he. And that soldier is me. I'll see brighter days one day
Monday, July 26, 2010
6:24 AM
What i’ma do with my life, getta job, talk about bullshit things I don’t like/care for, be around annoying ass co-workers, suck up to a boss, have no hopes or dreams, nothings to look forward too, go to meetings about how we can step the company up to make another man more money, work enough to be broke becuase there’s always some bill I can’t stay up on, put my bitterness out on my kids and everybody that’s around me, stop smoking gods tree, become an alocholic, try to get closer with the lord so he can bless me by talking to some preacher who really don’t give a fuck about what i’m going through or god himself really, tell my daughter I can’t buy that today, starve, wait in lines for food stamps, get harrassed for unpaid child support if I can’t make a payment, not have nothing to tell my mom except some bullshit fucking work schedule.. Nah, that’s just what everybody else did. I’m pretty sure their “School”, and high school/college jobs they kept got em far in life. World help me, I can’t do it. Death looks prettier than that mayne
5:00 am
Things go wrong, everythings not what it seems, it won't last forever, love is hate, your bound to be in the dumps a little.. Lifes short anyway, it's okay to be sad, but don't be afraid of fear, fear is good, it means you have something to conquer, without challenge, the slut of a world would be easy right, therefore boring.. and as boring as life is, you might fall in love along the way
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
I wrote this blog in my phone last night & debated on posting it. I only think of my blogs as personal notes to myself. It's upon you if you read them
The thing about love is it always ends.. It's like a movie that needs a sequel to be more understood. Or in a sense, a season.. It needs continuation. I've been alone in a manic state for my 20th year now and I've experienced true love once, puppy love, infatuation, and lusting. Thoughts hurt, and reality's touched. Once having a reason to live goes beyond anything a paycheck could ever do for me. I can't seem to care about anything in life except the things I love. The people my age are more into clubbing, lieng & obsessing over social networks, and being their favorite entertainers. I haven't been this suicidal in a while. Tho I won't take my life, the thought comforts me. The things I want to do with my life doesn't reach anybody around me. Everythings so unbelievable to people. Me being a music artist, unbelievable. Me wanting to act, unbelievable. Me wanting to write & direct my own movies, unbelievable. Everybodies so scared to simply do something in public, but what the fuck for. Becuase of being made fun of? What are we 5? This is crazy. I told myself I would stop writing in my blog, but this is my blog for a reason. I don't care what I look like to people. Half the time I don't even like people, well.. Maybe it's not that. Maybe it's that I've been around the wrong people everyday of my life. So when I seperate myself, I feel whole again. Until, I feel alone. God doesn't oppose life. Only evil does. The little mistakes I've made turned into the ultimate collapse of the rest of my life. And all this pain for what, to be great. To be famous? I don't care for fame, I just want my music heard. I don't "stunt". I just love. But like everything else in my life, it's been denied.
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Lissie - When i'm Alone
She’s sooooooo dope, this is what I love. True artist who write music from their soul and emotions.. Best
Poem i think.. If i may
The way you use to shine to me,
Was prolly the same reason you blinded me.
Never the less, I needed light to be,
Released from darkness inside of me.
Though that doesn't give you the right to be,
The only light with me.
With love, came passion..
With passion, came dreams.
With dreams, i dream,
It's only the right thing.
My heart is left in pieces,
I saw some on your ground.
Guess that's why you look down..
My life might be a joke to some,
But without emotions, my life is none.
Every experiance we came across,
Let me know that your really my hearts boss
So now, I got this life of sin..
It's time I put my 2 weeks in
Was prolly the same reason you blinded me.
Never the less, I needed light to be,
Released from darkness inside of me.
Though that doesn't give you the right to be,
The only light with me.
With love, came passion..
With passion, came dreams.
With dreams, i dream,
It's only the right thing.
My heart is left in pieces,
I saw some on your ground.
Guess that's why you look down..
My life might be a joke to some,
But without emotions, my life is none.
Every experiance we came across,
Let me know that your really my hearts boss
So now, I got this life of sin..
It's time I put my 2 weeks in
Monday, July 19, 2010
Cherish Life - Van Solo Music Video
Actually the first video i’ve shot in hawaii, but I plan to get a few more done in these last couple of weeks i’m out here.
Sunday, July 18, 2010
Saturday, July 17, 2010
Friday, July 16, 2010
Thursday, July 15, 2010
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
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