How i survived and laughed, too

Drain You - Nirvana

Kanye

Normal

It's going to be too late when people finally want to fuck with me. I will always be alone I see. But I will be strong and make awesome music to help people get through this shiitty depressing materialistic bully of a life. All outsiders salute me im coming for you

Murry christmas

I appreciate what I got, but I still ask God why
Thanks to all my real friends, but business always leads to me be around the no love folks
Love my daughter L'eau. Appreciate her. One day She will live with me and i'll be the poppa I wanna be
One beer. One Loosie. I'm maintaining I guess, much love

Leola Bell

Van Solo Performance January 4th

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Address 3801 Polk St. It's at a really dope hippie spot so come smoke out and fuck with me. Peace n Love

Truth

I'm meant for inspiration. I want my music to inspire people. If I die tomorrow, i know i'll end up in Gods house.... he'll probably send me back here in another shape or form to complete my mission and journey. When I first started rapping, I did it to make myself feel better.. Not for attention or fame or money, but everybody around me turned what I wanted to be pure and honest to a business plot. It fucked me up experiencing the things i've experienced in these past years since 17. When everything really started having a turn for the worst and I was exposed to some of the nastiest human beings and situations. It just turned me cold. My father disowned me because of choices I was making and how I was handling situations. I just always thought how could I help someone else if I can't even help myself. ALOT of people gave up on me after Veeology came out and I didn't instantly blow up.... Since I didn't get signed people lost faith in me and what I wanted to do with my life. I was alone. My brother was gone away in the navy and I was battling depression. My first suicide attempt I took 30 ambiens and woke up to bout 10 blue paramedics waking me up pulling me out of my bed, telling me to stay awake. I was drifting in and out of consciousness I was at peace until I woke back up in the hospital after my stomach got pumped. I wasn't looking for attention. I just wanted to go see my grandpa, and God. I felt like I was done here. Sometimes I feel like I can tell the future. I knew Hanna would eventually bring me mre pain and stray away to other people after our daughter was born, even before. She messed with a few people while pregnant, which fucked me up. She would never tell me the truth about what she really does. Darkness comes to the light though, always. Even for me. Not understanding and dealing with what everybody wanted me to do musically just changed me. She made me hate Veeology being that she put a negative connotation to the cd, but it wasn't a negative cd at all. I talked about her the whole cd. Weird... I felt myself lose myself then. I was more popular at the time and she hated that. While I was doing shows and whatnot tryna create new music, she would always interfere. Wanting to keep the love of my life I tried to please both her and fueling my dreams. She was mad jealous. Mad, Jealous... Which in turn changed the person I met at the park. So, knowing and watching my relationship die... I started seeing more and more other girls in search of some love, but it wasn't love. Every girl just wanted to fuck me or fuck with me because of music. Self sabotage started then. I started getting more high and was more broke then I've ever been. Back then, when I was selling drugs I always had money. But one day, I didn't want money anymore and felt selling drugs just wasn't what I wanted to do or be. I was proud of myself for that because I was only in that lifestyle because times were hard.  My mom wasn't working and we had rent due every month. So me and my brother did what we had to do. My mom didn't start back working til I graduated high school and by that time I was so fucked up from seeing death and my friends get knocked It just wasn't worth it to me anymore. I gave it up, I was happy my mom came out of the deep depression she was going through. I remember my dad wanting me and my brother to come live with him, but I wasn't about to leave my mom. Like fuck that. She coulda ended up really bad at that time, homeless or some shit. Fuck that. She finally found God and things started going more well for her after she just got out there, paid her tithes and tried. God has gave her alot. I love her so much. I love my dad tioo, regardless of everything. I'm used to walking alone. Only friend who stayed true to me and stayed by my side is Kevin. He helped me out so many nights and times. I would be at his crib like I fucking lived there! haha crazy man. I didn't like the way my music changed and wanted to stop rapping. It sounded too hardcore to me, and I knew this public wasn't with that. Everybody is so happy and I couldn't be happy so how could I make pop? Iono... Kept going, more and more I just wanted to quit music.... More suicide attempts. Looking for heroin, but not having any luck with that. Now i'm 22 going on 23 in February and i'm still in the same spot. People ask, why you not signed yet? Well, this game is about who you know, not what you sound like. For some reason, people don't like me. I've had more people try to knock opportunities away from me then give them to me. I know i'm a dead man if I stay in Houston. It's only a matter of time. If I leave, there is hope for me. The world is different. California got so much love and open hearts. I think thats the place for me. Somehow, someway I gotta get over there to grow.

Real

FUCK EVERY BLOG NIGGAS DO NOT WANNA POST MY MUSIC BUT IF I WAS A WACK TRASH NIGGA MY SHIT WOULD BE EVERYWHERE FUCK MUSIC LIFE

HARD TO FIND SOBER

It's really shocking to have nobody to talk too. Everybody I know is on some get rich quick scheme or  some "hey this is coming up man" bottom line is I dont believe its any hope for me. People don't like me. Talent doesn't matter. If you wanna be anything, keep a mask on for the pain, keep shit to yourself, network (cause who you know is the most important thing), it's really simple. Don't put your heart into because anything you love is bound to kill you, or at least weigh you down til you don't care anymore. Stay outta the trap, and traps. Good luck. Peace

Hanna.

Never thought the pain of you passing by would pass. Now this emptiness feels normal and I dont even feel bad or ashamed when I have sex. Yay for progress I guess. Now when I move or sign this deal.......

Fucking with people just does not work for me. I try and see why i stray away. Never fails. I hate fake love. Smh. Thank god for condoms. But, is this it?

I really hope you leave me behind if all you do is look down on me.

Sun Shiine Ft. Jaeden Zoe Music Video

Last post ever

Beauitful - Eminem. So on point to my life. Internet causes depression. But laptop therapy has been for months now. Peace y'all

Live and Let Live

Where?

Lonely and Sad

I don't get myself. Or my heart to say the least. Right now my chest hurts and eyes are draining. I don't love her, i know shes not good for me, i know she doesnt love me, when were together its all bad its not fun anymore its constant stress its new problems its worries, but man. I love her so much. I dont want to move on. I cant see my life without you. I put in too much work and time. I dont wanna just let it go. I cant front right now, im weak. I miss us so much. I cant beat this shit

DWNLD New Van Solo Mixtape "Lone Star" (EP)

DWNLD

Don Dhatta

I see why Cam'Ron strayed away from niggas tuff after the whole Dip Set shit calmed down. Niggas is too sus and ungrateful. Even bitches, people act like they have super amnesia yo. Nobody appreciates anything. We live in a age of not doing something amazing, but following trends and whatever the fuck is super meaningless, bad for you, and corny. R.E.M. - Losing My Religion
Like if I commit suicide and i'm happier, shouldn't that make you happy? I dont want this life or these problems anymore at all. Fuck rap too, I rather have my music like a lost treasure at sea that only a few know about. I don't give a fuck anymore. The world don't even deserve what's good for them. Earth will burn. God has given us so much for us to live in a backwards universe. And if he's mad at what i'm about to do. So be it. Can u imagine the best and worst part of your day being the first 5 minutes of waking up. First 2 minutes you see the sunshine and smile, and the next 3 the devil reminds you he runs this town. Damn.

About DIAMOND

Diamond sounds so much like an album that im afraid people wont catch on. It sounds like a Kanye West album if he was from Texas without sounding anything like Kanye. I don't think i've ever expressed myself on a level to where everybody can relate and I can still say what I wanna say. The Lone Star (EP) is nothing more than a warm up toning up the mood because once you hear DIAMOND, you'll understand it more. And maybe me more as well. My official first studio independent album is yet to come. All depends on how things work out I guess. I'm sick of stressing and if it doesn't stop i'm mailing my brain to each of the people that caused it and burying myself in the ground. Where I really wont have to force myself to get up. I really feel like my family would have less stress without me. It's like im always the center of attention even when I don't wanna be.

Aspects - Lone Star (EP)

Dope band

emo

life be looking like how long can you take being unsuccessful to become successful. everyday failures getting really old b. if this shit dont work im out fuck everything

New Van Solo "Fondren And Main Freestyle" Off Lone Star (EP)

Figured since its Screw Birthday, i'd let this go.

Life, Gasoline Dreams

All of my heroes did dope
Every nigga round me playin' married
Or payin child support
I can't cope
Never made no sense to me one day I hope it will 
And that's that, sport, sport
Pray I live to see the day when Seven's happily married
With kids, woe woe
The world is movin fast and I'm losin' my balance
No time to dig, low low
To a place where ain't nowhere to go but up
Ya wit me say shiiit, sho sho
Now let me ask ya'll this

- Andre 3000

Ima Keep Going

Believin in self, Lovin self

Van Solo Studio session for "School Zone"

She's so perfect

Can't date tho..... but i will fuck.... or make love.... whatever a few times tho. Don't belee me just watch

Video behind making of DIAMOND

BEHIND "DIAMOND" THE PROCESS from DEV$NN(ALLMIGHTYDC) on Vimeo.

New Vannie Solo "So Many Heauxs" DWNLD

Might be dropping a prelude to DIAMOND. The way it's looking it might be a go. Got some dope dope tracks in the stashspot.

God is Great

Crazy how things work out. I'm just going ahead.

Money - 50 Cent

U know 50 one of my favorite rappers, next to Eminem and me.

About Me

When will the fantasy end and I become the big rock star I know I am inside and life. Lord knows its only so much weed and wine to conceal it. No healthcare, 401k, or pension plan. My future is up in the air. Whether i'm alive or not. I still got dependents to make sure our taken care of. I'm 22 feeling like death is constantly calling me. And it doesn't help I think I might have cancer. Self diagnosed doctor I am. I'm looking forward to Diamond coming out and doing well. It's an album. I was in a slump for awhile wondering if I wanted to quit rap and pursue something else, but was also without studio so maybe that was bothering me and the choices I made during that time. I'm always stressed and always hard on myself. I will truly be sad if I die and never experience the life of independence. I want to pay my own bills, I hate owing money it's bullshit. Having to pay courts for some bullshit im not really even apart of. I feel nothing for you and your situation, all you are is a bill and setback to me. For you my hearts more then cold, its not there at all. I can't forgive someone who deliberately ruined my life cause there was two simple solutions for these everlasting problems I got. I feel like the devil was alive that year and ramped, I caught the wrath hard. I don't feel so bad now, but financials is pushed back tough. Like let me explain, I got to pay 500 a month, right, so imagine if you get a job, work 40 hours just for 30 to a 100 bucks. Depending on how much your paid and how many hours blah blah blah. What can I do with that? My gas cost 50 dollars. Smh. And people always tryna leech off the money I get, and I don't do anything illegal when I do come up with some money. These court niggas will drive you crazy, thats why I say don't have kids unless your ready and try your best to not be forced in a situation like I did. Condoms break too, ya know. So if you are fucking somebody, least let it be somebody u love, not a drugged out choice like mine. Whatever tho. It be some days I just wanna blast myself. Thank god my mom believes in me like she does and doesn't hassle me like she did my brother before he joined the navy. But I guess that time period during my life made me "Solo" or as I like to say "Soul Ho" but you'll hear that.... I have no problem sharing my story or stories because it helps me and I don't want nobody especially my fans to go through tough unhappy situations like I did. Yo, if you worried about not getting girls, don't. Handle ya business and when the time is right, you'll get one. You need your life set up and money straight to fuck with any bitch anyway. Well any bitch you would want. I stated on my twitter i'm not doing free verses anymore, i've learned and saw with my own eyes that niggas don't got love. So doing it for the love is dead now. That time is over, and i'm more than worth being paid for what I do so if you can't chunk something I chunk deuce. Plus, like joker say "*IF YOUR GOOD AT SOMETHING NEVER DO IT FOR FREE" ahh. Love Dark Knight, so many gems. I'm really happy with the way DIAMOND sounds. It sounds like an album, really Kanye West like (unintentionally i promise) But I just mean with the way i'm expressing myself. It has a big old school Texas influence in it. Cause as a kid, that's all I listened too! I knew when my cousins use to pine up in mo city I would one day be smoking too and sipping drank. I first had it at 7, fucked my life all the way up... then I discovered porn...lol and been intrigued by sex every since. I think women are so beautiful so while I was in school I fucked as many girls as I could. Thank god my health is good because I was going innnnnnnnn. lol. Every braud just thought I was so cute and different, and I just wanted that ass. And got it, everytime, I knew if i ended up at a bitches house it was going down lol. Good times in adolescence. I was also a serious hooper. I'm a legend on corporate and alief. I went to alief middle, boys will tell you about me if they went there lol. I had fun growing up, the hood is interesting and some people are really cool and down to earth and I believe all those experiences made me who I am today. I remember so vividly people telling me how fucked up people were and I didn't know what they meant at that age, but now I know. Alot of people use to be like I just ride solo on some fuck everybody shit. And maybe, subconsciously is where the nam "Solo" derived from, among other things. Man, i'm rambling... In a writing mood tho. Be ready for DIAMOND. So many bangers. Like "New Heels" which is about a lost love, overcoming it, and explaining the situation of a relationship crumble in my most humbling respectful words. "Spitting Game" screaming to LET ME LIVE MY LIFE. self explanatory. "Dj Screw Big Moe Fat Pat" discussing how I be making it through these times in a fly way. "We Get High" which might be my favorite off the album as of right now just being Vannie. DIAMOND is really an album mane. It's nothing like pointless music niggas been releasing just telling y'all get high. It's a story.... of where I was and where i'm about to be. This shit gone bang in yo whip and ipod, i'm so proud of it. Might give out a prelude to DIAMOND of songs just to vibe too in the meantime. We'll see tho. I know boys been missing and needing that new Vannie, tired of that corny shit and I feel ya trust. It's coming mane, all love. 1

all worked up.

Now that Diamond is getting geared up for release and all that woop la I can finally start saving and spending money on much needed instruments. Not gonna do a rock album, but like guitars and pianos are needed from me right now. It may be classified as rock, but it will really just be freedom of expression. So many songs I write, but can't work as raps. Rap is tough, Rock is emotional. And i am both, at times. But more emotional then so, like some days I just don't want to be bothered by the world or anybody. Today was one of those days, I wont even look at my phone. I guess im searching, like roy ayers say.

Sparklehorse kind of day

Poem

“She puts her hands on either side of my face, and the room falls away. I have never gotten so lost in a kiss before.
And then, the space between us explodes. My heart keeps missing beats and my hands cannot bring her close enough to me. I taste her and realize I have been starving.
I have loved before, but it didn't feel like this.
I have kissed before, but it didn't burn me alive.
Maybe it lasts a minute, and maybe it's an hour. All I know is that kiss, and how soft her skin is when it brushes against mine, and that even if I did not know it until now, I have been waiting for this person forever.”

― Jodi Picoult

Pimp C Blood - Allmightytv

PIMP C BLOOD from DEV$NN(ALLMIGHTYDC) on Vimeo.

New Vannie Song "Show Love"

Did this today wit dEv. Shiii, What Would Pimp C Do?

DIAMOND is done.

Yessir. Diamond is done being recorded and the first mix. its all done be me, tottally self made project right here. Oh a good happy day I dont need nobody. lol. U just spose to add to me baby, im not spose to need u, its unhealthy. I AM HAPPY SOLO TODAY HAHAHA

positive message from Breezy

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Work Work DIAMOND

Been working on DIAMOND. Tough...... it's tough. it's not like anything u've heard from me. Or if u haven't heard anything, this is a great start lol. It's going INNNNN. its music for everybody. and I mean everybody. I think I covered every topic. Really fucking wit these new flows, they fit my personality good. and its alotta gems for shows. Anthems. Mayne. It is everything im saying it is. A classic. It's next to Veeology now. "Look I dont wanna talk so much shit, she wants me to fuck her, she wants my dick, in, and around her mouth"

IDNU DWNLD New Vannie. Vannie Back

BTW, this was a Freestyle. Just felt like it. Word. Enjoy :)

MANE. GET YO MIND RIGHT.

"YOU LOOK AT THESE FAKE ASS NIGGAS, AND THINK CUS THEY SAY SOME FAKE SHIT IN MUSIC, THAT THE SHIT I BE SAYING AINT REAL" - 50 CENT

"I WAS DOWN, THEY KICKED ME WHILE I WAS DOWN, WHEN I THINK ABOUT THE SHIT IT FUCK MY HEAD UP RIGHT NOW" - 50 CENT

"I tried being cool that cool shit dont work for me, i put that gun in ya face, ya hear my ass perfectly" - 50 Cent

"I got a short fuse so if by some chance i get annoyed. The button gets pushed and your life gets destroyed. Got niggas who will do the shit just cause they bored. MAN I AINT EVEN GOTTA TELL NIGGAS WHAT FOR" - 50 Cent

"A Nigga shot me I musta bled out my conscious" - 50 Cent

You Took My Heart - 50 Cent

Money = Peace

Love isn't real, it's a figment of your paycheck. These bitches aint real they just want a come up. I'm starting to separate myself from these weak people. I dont even need weed anymore, just green. I'm learning more about business now. Power moves is coming from Vannie. First stop u finna see a nigga all around the city. Believe me. If I get a bitch, cool. If not, somebody giving that pussy up regardless. You want me, take me. Don't trap me u fucking idiot. That shit don't work. Shoutout to the 50th Law. New peace is fuck u and not giving none. Aiiiiiiiight

Right on.

“You sleep to reverse the progress of your life”

—	Mark Strand

even though. its TIME TO WAKE UP

Business Mind - 50 Cent

While most y'all paying attention to these flashy fake fronting smoking mirror broke rappers who just want yall drugged up dancing and tricking, I'm paying attention to niggas who really got it and make smart moves. watch me i'm coming up boy. U gone remember me. and, U gone love me

Lol

Yung Sosa - November In 89 DWNLD

DWNLD By Clicking This

Whatever dont judge me. lol.

Ahh

Lol

i watch too much porn... and fantasize... single life is wack when u not tryna whore urself out no more. lol. ok yeah bye (also doing a side project about my favorite porn stars and girls ive had sex with.. putting names on tracklist, fuck it.... lol) (waits impatiently for mic to arrive thru mail........*)

Supernatural Vacation

Jeezy is a motivational speaker. Getting a apartment next month or two maybe December. Recording Diamond this week. Getting in school for January (U of H). Texas Money Video Gonna be dropping on WSHH soon. Also, MTV? ..... word to pink. Making pancakes right now. I need some weed in my system. Thank Allah my conscious been clear lately (past week) Crazy World, Hustlers Ambition, Vacation - Jeezy Buying myself a BMW for daily motivation. Getting rid of my toyota. Or Lexus maybe, whichever I find first. U bout to see another side of me nigga im sick of stressing, word

Shiny

All in the process of Diamond. Shining. Fuck whats going on. ALLMIGHTYTV.COM

Vannie Out

"told my main bitch that she worthless, spanked her" based based based ahahlgdakhsaghsaslhakvlak

Killed This Ho

Studio

So happy my home studio is almost back. I should have my shit up tomorrow, but the latest thursday if I gotta wait on the mic. Oh lord i'm feeling reborn. Learned a life lesson. A few of em.... So I guess things happen for a reason. People expose themselves in time. 50 Cent - They Burned Me. So it aint even a question why my heart turned cold. Yah

Ah Word

a lil Brandon Boyd

Yeah ya exactly

3amshiiii

Full Retard

Dope Movie To Watch

Importance of Diamond.

In the rough, In the rough. I say. Diamond in the rough, is me. Diamond is some of the best music I've ever made. It's music for everybody. The beats is fresh, the rhymes is fresh, the topics are important and self freeing. So much i've been holding inside that's been weighing me down. Getting this out is going to enlighten me. I'm no longer questioning and second guessing myself. I'm going to get this Album on Blogs, Websites, Whatever I have to do to get this music out to the world. I know Vannie Fans been missing me rapping, but I had to do whats best for life and take some time to sit down and think. Now I feel like i'm ready to back full control over my life and career. Going to bring the world the Gospel. Shock them that i'm from Houston. I know it's unbelievable being with the way I am. I promise Diamond will be the first step in my life change. After this im starting on the album. I'm talking to my friends again more. I'm going to read, meet new people. Just move on. Not being in the shadows no more. I love the world. I love the experiences I had on the road and the people i've met. I love believing in myself. I miss the true beautiful me, so today i'm going (back) up. Steps. Goals. Form follows Function. God is greatttttttttt

Anotha Teachin.

You know what my mission is? When you walk away from my show I want you to think, “I saw God.” For real. I want you to think-not me as God-but like the spirit. You know what I was looking at? A Michael Jackson concert. I felt like, “Wow,” I saw God. I know the people that were there felt that and I felt it over the DVD. I want you to remember the feeling you had when you walked away. Not the words. Not the, “look I rap so good look at me rapping,” even though the words are great. I want you to remember the feeling of the music and the feeling of seeing somebody up there working hard for you. That makes sense? - Rhymefest

ISM

Yeah, and at the end of the day, you just have to be a person of understanding. Understand what it is. Long as you understand what it is, it’s all good. People, they sit around and they mope and complain. They be like, “Man, shit ain’t right. What the fuck?” Any time things change in a person’s life, if it’s not really favorable to them, they point the finger. Like, “This is fucked up. It ain’t right that this happened.” At the end of the day [quoting himself], “Apply yourself to supply your wealth and the only limitations you’ll have in life are those that you place upon yourself.”  

"Well, it all depends on the way things go. Sometimes, you could be misled and led to trust. You could be like, “I trust this person. I know they’re going to lead me in the right direction.” But the people that you look towards to lead you in the right direction, they may not have your best interest at heart. That’s the way life goes. Then, you may have people that do have your best interest at heart. It’s just a matter of you being a sound judge of character and making the right choices and shit."

- GLC

Diamond Tracklist

Amen.

Pray for me. God forgive me for my sins. Get excited for DIAMOND. Lord give me strength within my daily bread. You are my lord and savior and I need you now more than ever Lord. I bow to your greatness as I won't question your miracles. I want to be set free so I accept the process. Oh mighty God let my health be clean and my mind be clear. A clear concious I pray for oh God. A new day in my mind oh Lord is what I need holy one. I do not question your work oh god. I need you in my life oh God. Please keep watching over me and protecting me oh God. Allah Amen

Is what it is

I needed some.

Walk

I want to be a nude model

perfect