I'm doing a dubstep mixtape. Here's the first track.

Gonna work with this guy

I don't have to worry! Download.

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Word to the not so love letter I got this morning.... ahhhhhhhh isn't life and love lovely? Fun fact.. I wrote "Hopelessly Devoted" about 8 months ago... Meaning i've been knowing whats happening now was gonna happen before it even started. That's why I didn't give a fuck. Guess everything happens to align themselves the proper way tho.

I actually did this today.

I'm last verse, Shoutout Chance man. I feel like I kinda needed to spit this verse.

Your not alone Vanny.... And now I feel comfort.

I'm blind to you! Inspired by this.

Stand By Me

Why wouldn't I care about love........

“When my husband died, because he was so famous and known for not being a believer, many people would come up to me-it still sometimes happens-and ask me if Carl changed at the end and converted to a belief in an afterlife. They also frequently ask me if I think I will see him again. Carl faced his death with unflagging courage and never sought refuge in illusions. The tragedy was that we knew we would never see each other again. I don’t ever expect to be reunited with Carl. But, the great thing is that when we were together, for nearly twenty years, we lived with a vivid appreciation of how brief and precious life is. We never trivialized the meaning of death by pretending it was anything other than a final parting. Every single moment that we were alive and we were together was miraculous-not miraculous in the sense of inexplicable or supernatural. We knew we were beneficiaries of chance… . That pure chance could be so generous and so kind… . That we could find each other, as Carl wrote so beautifully in Cosmos, you know, in the vastness of space and the immensity of time… . That we could be together for twenty years. That is something which sustains me and it’s much more meaningful… . The way he treated me and the way I treated him, the way we took care of each other and our family, while he lived. That is so much more important than the idea I will see him someday. I don’t think I’ll ever see Carl again. But I saw him. We saw each other. We found each other in the cosmos, and that was wonderful.”

New Moshpit Zone Download! With Tracklisting Cover (Corrected)

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Moshpit Zone Mixtape Download

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Iono whats going on with me except change.

This the world we live in.

Made For TV Movie - Incubus

"A scene set to singe innocence
Upheave, unhinge, and pit against
Like every made for TV movie should.

Hello,
I'm trying to focus, but my eyes deceive me, yeah
Focus.
I'm witnessing history... repeating.

Focus. Focus. Focus.
Focus. (I can see now)
Focus. (I can see now)
Focus. (I can see now)

We are, we know, we see, we think for you, yeah
The who, the what, the when, the where, the why
We build your hill, we build you too, we see you all..."

Don't let the world...... bring you down.

Make Yourself

If I hadn't made me, I would've been made somehow..
If I hadn't assembled myself, Id've fallen apart by now.
If I hadn't made me, I'd be more inclined to bow.
Powers that be, Would have swallowed me up
But that's more than I can allow.
But...

If you let them make you, they'll make you Paper-Mache
At a distance you're strong, until the wind comes
Then you'll crumble and blow away.
If you let him fuck you there will be no foreplay.
Rest assured, They'll screw you complete, Until your ass is blue and grey!

You should make amends with you,
If only for better health.
But if you really want to live,
Why not try, and Make yourself?
Make yourself (Make yourself)

If I hadn't made me, I'd have fallen apart by now.
I won't let them make me..It's more than I can allow.
So when I make me, I won't be paper-Mache..
And if I f*ck me...I'll f*ck me in my own way.
F*ck me in my own way
F*ck me in my own way
F*ck me in my own way
F*ck me in my own way...

You should make amends with you,
If only for better health (Better health)
But if you really want to live,
Why not try, and Make yourself?
Make yourself
Make yourself
Make yourself
Make yourself!



More than just words of encouragement. I'm tending to go out on a limb for myself for a change... Getting my mind back in school/life form, been reading inspiring books lately. Also, watched a few inspiring movies. So i've fully decided to enroll in school by next semester. Refreshing my memory alot.................a fucking lot................ but i'm not that far behind, and since.... i've experienced life without, but now I know what I wanna do and why i'm doing it. Shits gonna change man, can't let things eat up my head anymore. I'm still alive, I need to be seen in all aspects and walks of life. Music is the release of harm on ones soul and the journey of life change. So before, I go outta my head and do something really stupid, I have to get out of this place.

A cloud hangs over.

Dope

Prelude to Interim (Documentary) from The Art of Re-use on Vimeo.

Enjoy

Ross

Lifes all around us.

Wow.

I understand, but I got what I wanted.

You were so full of life, and I just wasn't. I was. But I wasn't. I was dead inside. A walking zombie. Doing my best to eat the rest of my brain so i'll never have to think again. I also know now that this wasn't suppose to last forever. Lately i've been thinking about stuff as whole. I ran into a brick wall off my own selfish encrypting false know it all methods. I messed up and caused more havoc like any diluted blind stupid person would. Problems don't solve problems, people don't solve emotions, and solutions are learned.. Answers aren't always logical. The answer to your problem today could be your biggest problem tomorrow.

Cool.

Based

Expression in every way. Aspiration

Examples of inertia

Presently, future is in the middle of a love triangle
With calamity, and me in the corner I'm starting to feel uncomfortable
Should I douse the spark or fan the flames
Or merely think of clever things to say?
Oh the more I try to separate, the better it feels to get right in the way

And I try so hard
Out of the way
Of that
Runaway train
Oh how
I do love the rain
Ohhhhhhh

Seems to be, that being in the middle is starting to get me in trouble
Try to run away, but they have a talent for making trouble seem enjoyable
Oh the more I try to separate, the better it feels to get right in the way
Should I douse the spark or fan the flames
Or merely think of clever things to say?

And I try so hard
Out of the way
Of that
Runaway train
Oh how
I do love the rain
Oh
Ohhh Ohhh Ohhh
Ohhh Ohhh Ohhh

Runaway train(3)
Oh

And I try so hard
Out of the way
Of that
Runaway train
Oh how
I do love the rain
Ohhhh

Runaway train (X3)

Buddhaday

Stay Focused Austen. I still love you... Your still my best friend.

Where'd you learn those fighting moves?

Do anything, but walk past me.

I am to life what's sleep to death.

Lol dope

Veegly Update

Since I'm already 15 tracks into "Moshpit Zone". I'm not gonna try, but i'm sure I will release it this month. It's gonna come out in zones... random occurences.... never a set project to work on. It's like one second, i'm doing something for this and then that. It's crazy. But these songs are old and new. Pretty sure you never heard them, but some of em are months old for me. Now they have placement. This is volume one till life feels like fucking me again which will probably be today and tomorrow, but hey.... I'm alive.... right..... Right. Although some positive things been happening and I should be looking up, but i've learned not to look too hard into outlooks.. More just yourself.... to do more.

Sad to say, but life....

Peace, of the heart.

A Personal Note From Pink:

"I’m sure my newest video for “F**kin’ Perfect” will be much like some of my other videos, which basically means I expect it will ruffle some feathers.

My favorite books, art pieces, films, and music, always have something jarring about them. I want art to make me think.
In order to do that, it may piss me off, or make me uncomfortable. That promotes awareness and change, or at least some discussion.
That is my intention.
You can’t move mountains by whispering at them.

Cutting, and suicide, two very different symptoms of the same problem, are gaining on us. (the problem being; alienation and depression. the symptoms; cutting and suicide). I personally don’t know a single person who doesn’t know at least two of these victims personally. A lot of us have seen certain starlets showing off their latest scars on a red carpet somewhere, usually right before they head back to their favorite rehab.

Its a problem, and its something we should talk about.
We can choose to ignore the problem, and therefore ignore this video, but that won’t make it go away.
I don’t support or encourage suicide or cutting.
I support the kids out there that feel so desperate/numb/powerless, that feel unseen and unheard, and can’t see another way.. I want them to know I’m aware. I have been there. I see them.
Sometimes that’s all it takes.

Making this video was a very emotional experience for me, as was writing this song. I have a life inside of me, and I want her or him to know that I will accept him or her with open and loving and welcoming arms. And though I will prepare this little munchkin for a sometimes cruel world, I will also equip this kid to see all the beauty in it as well. There are good people in this world that are open-minded, and loving. There are those that accept us with all of our flaws. I do that with my fans/friends, and I will do that with my child, whoever they decide to be."

This is beautiful on so many levels.

Brandon Boyd 2

I see myself in others.

"I (and maybe we as a band) suffered from a terminal case of underdog syndrome for many years. We perhaps came to a place in our group psychology where we stopped wanting and caring if people liked us. We just kind of plowed forward and let anyone on the bus who wanted to go along for the ride."

- Brandon Boyd

The Warmth

Another day of boredom, loneliness, and captivating negative thoughts are numbing me to the point where I can't see.. But the debris of this place here, Isn't the only where weather is fierce. A place with rain is only a place. Meaning there's sunshine somewhere else along the road. I see with the positive light of my problems which are that they make me think bigger. Like I have too. I can't think about the easy routes, and the settling life. I need alot just to remain in this world alive. Alots been taken out of me, but there's life in near death. I realize experiance is your biggest want. It can leave you. We just want to experiance things. I know what i've been exposed too and how much weight i've applied to myself based off thoughts of imaginary pressure, worries, and intense self-loathing. I feel change. I feel revelation within myself. I feel coldly alone to the point my skin bumps up. I wake up everyday with thoughts of why am I doing this to myself. This is not you. Trying to convince myself that everything i've ever believed in has no meaning. Although, in all.. I know that it does. Maybe it's just the consequence of new journey or maybe it's just part of the process.

Trying to understand myself through darkness

"I'm diggin my way to something, I'm diggin my way to something better"

I'm so ugly, That's okay cause so are you.

I pray that God answers, maybe i'll ask nicer.

So what it doesn't matter cus I know just where my heart is.

I'm afraid cus I have no fear... Don't really know what i'm coming at peace too.. this or this

I want, what I want.

If your ever up late

Van Solo - I Don't Even Care (Moshpit rap) =]

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The shrugging shoulders..........

Moshpit Zone

Off a different project i'm working on sporadically called "Moshpit Zone". Whenever I'm in the zone/mode/mood I do these... It's a new breed of rap. Moshpit Rap.

Brandon Boyd.

Veegly news: Music. Love. Music

yo i'm doing a project right now full of hard raps and flows.. no soft shit... the liquor and weed been on full affect in my veins... its making my raps raw as they use to be. I started out killing raw shit, crazy. I settled down and now it's back up. i'm drunken stoned right as said in suicidal daydreams which is funny cus i really have those.. Total visualizations of me killing myself in full studied detail during the day obscurely.

New music, by me. Download

Get it HERE

SFA Mixtape Download

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I hate! Holding music. So here you go. We've been done with this for awhile now. Least 3 weeks. Enjoy, Vanny!

Old Vanny.

Veegly Update

Dropping SFA mixtape tomorrow/today at 4:20. Doing Super Gum Video. Prolly gonna be up tomorrow as well.

Inspiration.

"God blessed us all, with the strength to pursue"

Drugs

On & On. And On & On... Got dammit i'ma rolling stone

Nirvana

Camp outs. More creation, Less stress.

The Raconteurs

Life

Aint nobody better than anybody that ya next too. So take that shit NOWHERE else before you step ta.. Niggas like me, and down they team n watch love beam on every haters screen.. And thats food for thought from the vicinity of me, and any I agree. Who don't seat with me, cus I don't roll with them basterds like that to hit and leave. I'm more Inglorious and more victorious (ah!) - Vanny

Amelia To Celebrate 50th anniversary of Ferrari 250 GTO

Bill Warner, Concours founder and chairman said…

"We are well known for rolling an anniversary into a seminar and the public really loves how we do it. The Ferrari GTO is another example of our planning ahead to celebrate a very important milestone. Over the past several years, I’ve noticed that other shows will recognize an important event before the actual year it occurred just to be the first to do it, and to me that diminishes the historical value."

Read more HERE

Tennis on water.

Happy Vannesday!

Army' Official Music Video by me.

Yo Houston.

I can only hope when I die that the next heartbroken boy plays my songs for comfort.

Charles Manson

And I just got more inspired to make (true) music.

Thoughts

Ignorance may be the only key and freedom to enjoy life. What you don't know, you don't care. What you do know, you hate. No worries. To think is too much of a fierce thing among people. Actually realizing what your going through can make it worse for you. Which is probably why the world is based on free lies and false imagery. Put a couple diamonds on it, throw something designer on and your alright, right? As far as music goes, I can't rap. I can't just sit there making up punchlines you'll forget 20 seconds after you listen to the song. As a person who's grown to be a artist. I never liked the things I don't like now. I never really felt so socially needy as I see everybody be. I always kinda kept to myself. The sad thing is i'm a misanthrope and a humanitarian at the same time. It's confusing and quite a bit tricky I might add to go out through days. Sitting around playing mind games with myself to feel like i'm happy, but always knowing i'm just not anymore. I use to be the happiest kid, but now I see myself turning into this death craved zombie boy.

Look at what he's wearing. Then look at the fucking crowd.

The Illusion of Progress

Every shadow just behind me,
Shrouding every step I make,
Breaking every promise empty,
Pointing every finger at me
Waiting like a stalking butler
Who upon the finger rests
Murder now the path has lost me
Just because the sun has set
Judas was a fucking whistler
Nothing but the past is done
Judas mother fucking whistler
Nothing but the past is done

Why can't we not be sober?
I just want to start this over
Why can't we sleep forever?
I just want to start this over

I am just a worthless liar
I am just an imbecile
I will only complicate you
Trust in me and fall as well
I will find the center in you
I will chew it up and leave,
I will work to elevate you
Just enough to bring you down

Mother Mary was a whisper
Nothing but the past is done
Mother was a fucking whistler
Nothing but the past is done

Why can't we not be sober?
I just want to start this over
Why can't we drink forever?
I just want to start this over this time

I am just a worthless liar
I am just an imbecile
I will only complicate you
Trust in me and fall as well
I will find the center in you
I will chew it up and leave,

Trust me, Trust me, Trust me, Trust me, Trust me

Why can't we not be sober?
I just want to start this over, and
Why can't we drink forever?
I just want to start this over this time

I want what I want
I want what I want
I want what I want
I want what I want

Stone age man. I've been living in it for years.

Time of my video game life

I'm aight man.

I just like writing my thoughts and ideas because I have no one to talk too. I've learned that writing things down can stop you from making mistakes. Or at least for me, so what I think. I write. The couple of friends I do have don't like hearing my suicidal thoughts and neither does my mom. [I don't blame them] So I don't bring it up to them. Plus, everybody's not really gonna understand what your going through until/unless it hits them. I use to talk to my girl about my thoughts, but that's passed. I haven't been running outta weed lately so when I get really sad I just smoke.. Clears it all up. The world stresses me out alot. A fucking lot. My fears always speak to me. My grown insecurities and trying to feel normal again is a process. But this too shall pass.. It's just that I don't understand how people can think I can just be okay after a long relationship like it's just nothing. Of course, i'm scared. I'm afraid of everyone and everything. I'm being strong by making music and having countless conversations with myself. I talk to myself so much sometimes when i'm deep in conversation I don't even realize there's nobody else there. It's cool tho, all part of the plan obviously. I'm just gonna work harder and get stronger. Peace and love from Vanny always man. Your not alone out there if your with me, i'm fighting for you!

Running to my previous thoughts for comfort.

I can't lie your a need, fuck is a want.

Veegly Update

"Super Fucking Awesome" the mixtape is gonna drop in about two days most likely. Me and my brother knocked it out during his stay. Took about a week or so. (We took alotta weed, seinfeld, and movie breaks) 16 tracks... Heat mayne! Lol. It's funny when rappers or people say that. I need confidence of these wack niggas man lol... They just don't care what they give y'all, but I do tho. I gotta play shit for my mom. She would slap me if I made wack shit. hahahahahahahhahahahah

Long life of Jazz and Blues

Views

I'm not an athiest obviously. I believe in God. But, I also believe that God doesn't interfere with the world. If he did, he'd probably just destroy it.

Why were there Nazis?

And I ask you..

Woody Allen Quotes

"It seems the world was divided into good and bad people. The good ones slept better... While the bad ones seem to enjoy the waking hours much more"

"Life is divided into the horrible and the miserable"

"Life is full of misery, loneliness, and suffering. And it's all over, much too soon."

"Eternal nothingness is fine if you happen to be dressed for it."

"I am at two with nature."

"If it turns out that there is a God. I don't think that he's evil. But the worst that you can say about him is that he's basically an underachiever."

"Money is better than poverty, if only for financial reasons"

"Eighty percent of success is showing up."

"Most of the time I don't have much fun. The rest of the time I don't have any fun at all."

"My education was dismal. I went to a series of schools for mentally disturbed teachers."

"My one regret in life is that I am not someone else."

"You can live to be a hundred if you give up all the things that make you want to live to be a hundred."

My everyday

Army

This song means alot to me. Army is about fighting a war for the rest of your life. Disarming hatred and spreading love only. Too many people befriend you with FALSE motives. I'm here to stop all this nonsense. Salute!

I am. I am. I am.

Veegly fact

I wrote this shit 2 years ago when I was 18. Didn't record it becuase it was too hurtful for me to say the words of everything I wrote in the song. My mindsets much different from then. This is mostly an anger cry. I'm not fine with anything, but i'm okay about it now.

I'm ready for love. I'm ready for you.

"Don't say you love me,
If you don't mean it,
You say your heart broke,
I say I need it,
What if I can fix it,
What if I can change it
If its not too late,
Can I claim it"

Shady

"No one knew I was going through, growing pains"

Why was i born to love you.

Fuck, life never changes

Who the fuck am i now. I have no love to care about.

"And I can't member my memories, what is going on, what the hell have you did to me" - Vanny

Loosing love made me forget who I am. Start over. Crossover. Don't want anybody. Don't want you. Tired of loneliness. I'm such a baby! Knowing everything I believed in was a lie. I got so many songs that comfort me it's crazy. Sun Wraps was a letter to myself tryna get me to be happy. But i'm not. I'm emotional. And mostly, i'm pissed. Wasted my fucking time. Stupid ass fucking mistake after mistake. If i'm the only bad guy and I just got left by an angel then I don't deserve to live. Get that. Hopefully my suicidal tendicies fulfill their dreams. Theirs NOTHING for me to live for. Just by a succubus being real means there's no chance for me to fall in love again. What's the point of going through the same shit over and over and over and over and over again. This shit is madness! Cosmic loneliness is life. Devils win. Wackness wins. Toture wins. John Lennon was murdered, reagan was president, bush was president, whats the fucking point of me trying to fight a battle for people who don't wanna think and rise... Just wanna be told and go. Fuck this shit man.

High Highs - Live in Dreams

Haha Devinn you murderer

But i'm still a

"I still do it if you aint wit it and hope the lord will forgive me cus i'm still sinning"

Yes I was talking to you

"Just remember that I love you when you say you not in love with, public"

I'm just

Self Loathing. Self Therapy. Not wanting people to know wassup with me personally. Not wanting to reconnect with someone else because of too much guilt during the process. Why was I born to be in love. Why was I born? Work is the illusion of meaning and sex is the illusion of continuity. So when I say lines like "I wish some moments would freeze, like a good ass sculpture.. and if you feeling that baby bring yo ass over" What i'm really saying is I love you and only need you to survive. Being abandoned isn't the same with a longing heart for affection. When I say shit like, "I'm scared to getta lover". I'm not saying i'm afraid of sex, i'm saying i'm afraid of anything more than that. All in all. "I don't care who knows i'm blue" - Matt Dennis

Word man.

Super dope video

Pure Ecstasy

Best Coast

Life

Self Control - Sunday Girl

We want that shit too

Might vandalize this too.

Mindswimming

Sharing

Florence Welch

Japanese band

Kim Gordon.

I'm not in love.

Veegly mind take 87

I just wanted to let my fans, friends, or anybody who really generally likes and appreciates my music that I will put out one independent album sometime this year. If I don't make it during this year. That will forever be my gift and last goal in this life. I've been planning, contemplating my suicide for about 2 years now. I use to use the thoughts for comfort and motivation, but as bleek as that sounds I realized it's more than whats bothering me that bothers me. I'm bothered by rapist, pedifiles, jobs, people, the homeless, the hungry, the ignorance, and the sick materialistic society. I realize that maybe i generally don't want money. I just want my family, but I don't have any money to keep them lol.... I'm pretty sure my daughter will prevail through this life, i'll be her guardian angel when i'm gone. That's prolly better then anything I can do for her here. I'ma loser. I don't want no fucking job. I don't wanna be like these miserable ass fronting people. I've managed myself for 20 years now so I know how I am.. And subsequently I knew this day was coming. I knew this day was coming when my father looked me in my face and told his white friends i'm not his child, but my brother is. I knew this day was coming when my moms sister and husbands family were calling me the devil. I knew this day was coming when my grandpa was tryna teach me about life and I didn't even wanna go/stay in the hospital with him. I'm so fucking worthless man. I'm never gonna change my views and attitudes no matter how much I try.. Or how humilated I get. I realize that nobody really likes me... haha it's cool.... I like myself... I'm alone here. I'll be alone in the next life as well.... Hopefully the next life has drugs and crawfish.

Visionary Lyrics

I know one day
I'll lose this attitude
I know some days
I just be out of fuel
I go one way
Somebodies mad at you
Don't care what people say
But you was at it too
I got memories
That just haunt and visit me
And I can't seem to think
When I'm in misery
But I move to the place
Where the sinners be
And I go on, so wrong
Hold on, this ain't the end of me
I'm not my enemy
So let's enjoy the scene
Where my feet lean
And my eyes curve
Let my soul speak
Such heavenly words
Dreams merge
When you working for em
They was cool as my thoughts
But life is where they going
Life in slow motion
Where my package at
Ain't got the progress here
Can't even process that
I beat em back
I feed em that
Mind food, Ima zombie in the room
They be talking
I just Don't know
who they be talking too
Cus I don't ever listen
So the real fool is you
Hate on me
Wait on me
Stay on me
My homie
I'm lonely,
I'm insane,
I'm dreamed out,
I'm high mayne,
I
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All I have is myself now
Solo
Dolo

Quote of life (Link)

This is my life

Please

I have really bad posture.