I understand, but I got what I wanted.

You were so full of life, and I just wasn't. I was. But I wasn't. I was dead inside. A walking zombie. Doing my best to eat the rest of my brain so i'll never have to think again. I also know now that this wasn't suppose to last forever. Lately i've been thinking about stuff as whole. I ran into a brick wall off my own selfish encrypting false know it all methods. I messed up and caused more havoc like any diluted blind stupid person would. Problems don't solve problems, people don't solve emotions, and solutions are learned.. Answers aren't always logical. The answer to your problem today could be your biggest problem tomorrow.